99 Mails (20)

A dull pain gripped Song Qingchun's heart, and she continued to read.

"1996, October 3rd, sunny. I just transferred into a new school. It has been three days since I left the sanatorium, but I still feel the world around me is a piece of darkness. The world around me is within arm's reach, but for some reason, it feels incredibly distant."

"1996, October 5th, 3 am, starless. I once again woke up from the nightmare. The first thing I did after pulling off the cover was to rush into the bathroom. There is no hot water in the dormitory, so I shivered in the cold bath for one whole hour. The dormitory is quiet because all my roommates are asleep. I shivered under the covers throughout the night, but I was unable to sleep because I feel the dirt hasn't been washed off me."

Dirty? Why would Su Zhinian see himself as dirty?