A realization

Ractopictan no longer remembers how long ago it was when he was first created by the ORIGIN, but he remembers the events of that day so vividly. On the day that he and his siblings were created, the ORIGIN looked at them with a look of loneliness and disappointment. 

They had just been created and seeing that look on their creator's face they knew that they were failures. They who had been created to cure their father, their creator's loneliness were inadequate. Even though they were made using the power from the void and had strong bodies they were not suitable vessels to house the power from the void for themselves. 

They had failed to accomplish what they were made for, they only existed now simply because the ORIGIN had left them be. After that day the Ancient Ones started trying to find new meaning in their existence.