I'm sorry

Waking up every day is painful when the world I wake up to is only grey. The darkness surrounds me when all I wanna do is see color but yet there is none. The light that was once there has faded and now i'm alone in the dark cause no one wants to reach there hand out and tell me they are there for me. Instead all I see are fake smiles on friends I thought I had but it was only an illusion. A painful illusion that cuts me up inside, but when I scream for help no one can hear me. When people ask me if i'm ok and I say yes because I know they won't understand. I'm alone in this world and I can't stand it. I need some to tell me they are here for me and that i'm not alone but I am and it hurts. The pain hurts so bad I can't stand it anymore. I hope you take my weakness and turn it into strength. So I am sorry for putting a burden on you. I'm sorry for being around you when I know i'm not wanted. I'm sorry...but this is goodbye for now my friend until we meet again in the next life.