Chapter 8
I run out the door of the, hotel room and today I ran the stairs of the hotel to get to the lobby.
Once, I got to the lobby I payed for last night's stay with the money mum left on the table. Mum would pay if she wasn't at work(that she found in America) from 4 in the morning to 10 at night so I rarely see her. I ran out of the hotel, I look left and right trying to remember were to go.
I make it there, and go to check the time and see it was only 6:13!(A.M. by the way) "WHAT THE HELL IT'S ONLY 6:13!" I scream, but it hurts my thought because I only woke up at- hang on I didn't sleep at all so that's going to very bad for me today. "I guess I will text Matt to see if he is awake." I whisper to myself and start to text Matt. The text said.
Me:
'HEY, Matt I just wanted to see if wore up yet. Well if you're weren't before you'll wake up by thou text so, sorry. I just wanted to say that I'm already at the place for Internet Icon and I was up all night trying to think of something. I've been trying to figure it out from 5 P.M. and it's 7:30 now, and I'm shocked no one is here not even Shama Llama, so I just wanted to know if you were up or not even tho on my phone says it's 6:13 but I don't believe it.'
Matt's P.O.V.
I wake up to my phones bling. "Who could be texting at this time?" I question myself as I reach for my phone. "Britney. Why is she texting me?" I unlock my phone with the password 7542. (Idk if that's true but there are only a 1 in 10,000 change of getting it right so if I did... wow. Anyway back to the story) Just before I was about to read to text I hear Amanda my lovely wife, waking up. "Hun why are you up so early, are you okay?" Amanda asks me. "yeah I'm okay it's just one of my friends texted me, and since I'm up I may as well get ready for Internet Icon." I say as I'm getting out of bed. "Who was it?" Amanda asks again but, this time a different question. "Um..." I look at my phone because I forgot who it was and it was, and I found out it was Britney. "It's someone that you don't know." I say hopeful to get out of the question. Amanda says silent so I start to walk out but before I could Amanda stops me by saying "ether you tell me who this person is or you're staying there!" "okay. I give up! I will even read you the text and if you don't believe me the you can read it yourself. It's Britney, and the text said: 'HEY, Matt I just wanted to see if wore up yet. Well if you're weren't before you'll wake up by thus text so, sorry. I just wanted to say that I'm already at the place for Internet Icon and I was up all night trying to think of something. I've been trying to figure it out from 5 P.M. and it's 7:30 now, and I'm shocked no one is here not even Shama Llama, so I just wanted to know if you were up or not even tho on my phone says it's 6:13 but I don't believe it.' there happy?" "Yes, thank you Babe." (sorry I've never said 'babe' in that way... now thinking about it, I don't think I ever have. Eh whatever, you came here to read a book when stuff is happening about this book world, and not my story in my mind.) I walk into the kitchen to get some breakfast.
**Time skip to after Matt has breakfast**
"Okay Hun, I'm going to Internet Icon see you at four, Okay." I say as I'm getting my recording stuff. "okay bye!" Amanda says as she kisses me on the cheek just before I walk out the door.
Britney's P.O.V.
I really want to see Matt right now, I don't know how much longer I can last before he makes me cut myself again. (Time: 6:58)
After, about 3 minutes I see Shama Llama come in, but his not has happy and bubbly as normal so I asked "Hey Sharm! How you going? You seem different to normal." "No, no Britney I'm just fine. I'm just a little tried from staying up all night trying to think about something for the 'How-To Challenge'. I was think How-to Act African what do you think?" Shama said as he rubs his eyes. Responding back to his question I say, "That is amazing! I think it sounds prefect, I think the judges are going to love it." I admit I did said that WAY over dramatically, but he seemed to laugh at my over dramatic voice. "Well thank you for the complement but I really think it is a bad idea." Sharm says as he looks down looking like he was about to cry, so I go up to him and hug him, he looked like he really needed it to.
The second I hugged him, he just collapsed into my arms and started to cry. We both collapsed into the floor, curled up against a wall. He was curled up to me like he was my kid and I was his mother.
**Time skip 15 minutes**
"BRITNEY!" I herd Matt call witch sent a shiver up my spine. I give Matt a 'WTF' face, as I had just got Sharm, Sharm asleep. (Sorry I have the weirdest nicknames ever!) Matt puts his hands in the air signalling that he was sorry and was surrendering. I pick Sharma up bridle stile and walk over to Matt, and start talking to him quietly.
**Time skip to 8:50**
We were all waiting as Joule Thief had his 30 minute head start. Me... well you could say that I was... cutting. I have been doing this for about 3 and a half years. Wow, three and a half years already, three and a half years ago was when he started to talk to me. Him, he is my inner demon, and I don't know how much longer I can go without telling someone. I can't wait any longer if I do he will escape, and I can NOT let that happen at any cost. If he beaks out I will hurt people, and break their hearts. I cover up my scars on my arms by putting a black leather jacket on, and pulled the sleeves all the way down. I start to stand up while I put my right hand on the floor, to stabilize myself. I would of preferred if I could use my left arm but i made the dumb mistake, in cutting my left arm. I walked over to Matt, and asked him if he could meet me at the front of the building. Matt nods and says, "I'll be there in a couple of minutes." I nod and make my way to the elevators.
**Time skip until the elevator gets down to the ground floor, because the elevators are so GOD DAM SLOWWWW!**
Once I got to the ground floor I speed walk to the closest exit. I got outside and sat down on the closest bench and pulled out the knife that I was using earlier and pulled my left sleeve up.
{ TRIGGER WARNING!!! BLOOD AND CREEPY THINGS THAT MIGHT SCAR YOU FOR LIFE!!! Did you get the joke?... No okay}
I see my left arm covered all the way from my rist to my shoulder in scars from my knife, with blood leaking out of my left arm, because of this my sleeve was covered in blood, smearing the rest of my arm making it bloody
I make an incision on my left arm making blood squirt out of the scratch, and onto the rest of my arm.
{TRIGGER WARNING OVER!!!}
I head a door open and look up immediately to see Matt there with a horrified expression on his face.
Matt's P.O.V.
Once the elevators got down to the ground floor I went to see Britney outside. I opened to the door and found Britney cutting herself. "Britney, why are you doing that?" I ask with a lot of confusion and worry in my voice. Britney sighed and looked up from her arm, making our eyes connect, and started speaking. "Matt this is why I wanted to talk with you. I haven't told you the full story, or anyone in America or in the world actually." I walk over to the bench she was sitting at, and sit next to her and she puts away her bloody knife. "Br-" I start before getting cut off. "Matt, I'm sorry for lying to you, and to everyone else. I know you might not believe me but this Britney that you're seeing right now, is the real me. Not the Britney that you see everyday for Internet Icon," Britney sighs before starting again "I guess that I have a lot of explaining to do, right?" I nod and say, "Yes you do Britney." Britney looks down at the floor like she was getting yelled at by an angry parent, and my heart just goes out to her. (this is Matt thinking) 'Why did I do that? I fell horrible' Britney looks up again making her see my face, which was filled with sorrow and anger she takes a big deep breath in signalling that she was about to speak. "Okay so I'm 11 and I come from Australia, in Melbourne to be exact, I grow up with no father and as you can see I cut, I have this voice in my head and," Britney stops suddenly and I look at her in confusion only if I know what she was going to say next. "I have attempted suicide three times before, and all three time I overdosed... I'm sorry for being such a frailer but, I just had to get it out, if I didn't he would have came out. Alex would of come out."