RedCeiling

[Completed]:
Volume 1: Loss of a firm hold.

[Upcoming]:
Volume 2: Intertwined fingers.

[Excerpt]:
"I think I love you," I told him. The feeling of wanting to be with him for the rest of the time started the day he first visited me at the orphanage.

"You do, and I love you too." Then he walked nearer, "Promise me it'll be the two of us," he asked.

"Promise." 

But was that really possible? "I'm technically your sister," I said. We were old enough to understand certain things.

"Adopted." He stressed. "What I asked them was I wanted to you be with me forever. There will be no one to point on that," he said. Were things really that simple? But listening him say them was all I needed.
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I found out that I was pregnant almost a fortnight ago and which woman does not be happy? I wanted to tell him first and I did. But the reaction he gave made me doubt my entire life. First it was a surprise and then, as I waited for his response, I watched his eyes become happy. But before he smiled, a very small and indecipherable frown appeared and he hugged me tight not giving me a chance to read his face anymore. His breathing was quick and heavy. After he released me, I took in the smile on his face; only, I didn't know if I should call it a smile. All there was in his eyes was a hue of sadness.

"What's wrong?" I questioned him directly. His face changed once again. He seemed troubled.

"Nothing," he smiled and added that he was happy.

"You're not," I stated. He is not a fool to think that I would not know when something is wrong. And he would be more wrong to think that I would let this slip.
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“Look at me.” I said calmly. He shifted his head but still avoided my eyes. I walked up to him and put my eyes in his line of sight.

“Don’t you know what I mean ‘every day’?”

He took a quick step back. “Jessie, what’s wrong? Why are you like this?” What’s wrong?

An ear piercing sound rang through the room. I slapped hard across the face. Then I noticed that I started crying. Through my blurry eyes, I saw his eyes tearing up too. This was yet another unpleasant first. The first time I was forced to slap him.
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“Are you okay?” I asked him lifting my head to see his face. His chin rested on my head and I still did not have a proper look. I tried to move my head slowly in another attempt, but he held me tight, not letting me move. Was he still crying? Perhaps that was why he did not like me seeing him.

When we were kids and something troubled him, he used to find me to let it out. Crying was included sometimes. He did not hide his tears back then. Because, boys did not particularly cry in front of their girls, I questioned him how he saw this once. It was a playful teasing that I aimed at. But, he gave me a serious and truthful confession in return. Mentally I am the stronger one and he told me that crying in front of me never felt like he was lowering himself. That was his level of acceptance.

But everything he is doing now is in a stark controversy to my beliefs.

He spoke after calming himself more, “I’m not.”

[Target Audience]:
This story has 3 volumes. From the name, it is not odd that this is totally based on love. The first volume is a little tragic, the reason why it is under realistic fiction. If tragic romance upsets you, then this might as well.

**[UNEDITED]**
I didn't proof read all the parts. But I usually keep an eye to check for mistakes as I write. So hopefully there are not too many of them. Will be editing soon.

Struggle Of Love

Finally, the semesters have ended. Let's just say, I hope I pass. I am not entirely confident but I am not totally hopeless either. As soon as I reached home, my phone started singing my most favourite song. I smiled as I searched for it in my pockets. It's been a while since I've talked to Jessica. She is my most favourite friend from school. So she gets the most amazing ringtone. I happily accept the call.


"Hi May. How have you been?" She says on her ever flat tone.


"Pretty good as well. Come to Axil cafe, the day after tomorrow at 11 during day. Clear?"


"Yes! I will be there. Till dinner right?" She's the authoritative one among us. No saying 'no' to this lady. A more reason is that I can't wait to meet her anymore.


"Yeah, but I will be having drinks too. Just the girls. Make it the next day morning. That's it from me. We'll talk more when we meet." She is the wine type. Fern and I are the alcohol types, though we were under aged back then.


"Yeah... How's James?" James was one person for whom everyone who knew him wishes him to be happy and healthy.


"He's good. Rest all are coming, but that should not change your decision. I want the six of us together."


Of course. "Of course Jessy. Thanks for telling me beforehand, although I have already assumed so."


Then, line went off. I will be meeting them again. I sigh. We meet every year. Sometimes, whenever one of us feels like it. Last two times we met, all of us weren't able to go. That doesn't seem to be the situation this time from how Jessy spoke. I am honestly scared to face them, there is one secret and only one important fact that I keep from Jessy. I cannot be open with Sai. And James is an entirely different story. We'd be the most happy if we are left alone for a few minutes when we meet. I have no problem with the rest. He is an elder brother to us, whom we had since we knew him.


I wish everything goes fine. Honestly though, given a chance, I might as well skip this reunion.


Ahhhhh!!!!! I am going to meet Ton this time! Ahhhhh!!!! I should thank Jessy for getting his ass to meet us!


I have gotten a call at lunch and Jessy told me that Ton was coming as well! He's so hot. Before I daydream, I better prepare for the reunion. I take some friends and go to a mall to get a nice dress.


Ton was my senior at school and he was so sexy and handsome. He is a very practical guy. He knows so many things and whatever he speaks has the best logic behind it. It has been almost two years since I met him. He said he was sorry that he could not make it to meet us last two times. This time, he will be here!


I can't wait! As soon as I see him, we will go to a peaceful place for us to not witness any bitter things between Sai and the other two girls. All my seniors have their own issues, except Ton. He is so amazing! Also, I can have my say after Jessy. I am the youngest in our group after all! I don't even know why I am in our so called team. I do like them all but, it's out of normal that you always walk with your seniors. But this seemed like a way to get close to my Ton.


The day after tomorrow will be fun! I pray the heavens that we will be fine when I finally tell him.


The Invitation