#1: Bullied and Alone

"You bitch!"

"Why are you such a slut? Not only did you steal my boyfriend, you stole everyone's. I don't care if you look better or if you're smarter than us. All that matters is that you suck."

"I hope you die in hell."

Stop. I don't want this. Why am I being blamed? I didn't do anything wrong. Stop, this pain. I don't want it. Stop. Stop. Why?

...

There's no one here that will help me.

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I closed my eyes believing that the calm, the peace, will come. But I always knew it isn't forever. Sometime, someday, I will have to open my eyes. But that won't come for a long time. Even if I do, I know it will never go away. So I closed my eyes and looked into my heart. Opened my eyes to look at it, hoping it wasn't the hell I experienced. And there I was. My land. The land in the desert, always thriving where no one can touch me, and no one can see me. I sit down, smiling. Enjoying the sunlight. Then it goes away. Because here in this place, I am alone.

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Close your eyes,

feel the peace,

not everlasting.

But forever reachable.

Close your eyes,

go in deep,

open your eyes,

take a peep.

There you are,

in the oasis.

Where you can't be reached,

nor be touched.

You smile,

and sit.

But falter.

Out here in the oasis,

you are alone.