Part 37(Breakdown)

Arnav: if you trust me a little will you please...

And before he could say a word she spoke cutting him in between.

Khushi: TRUST, please Arnav don't even speak of it. It sounds so meaningless. Forget about you I have stopped trusting myself. This word gives me no relief but immense pain.

Arnav: Khushi please I promise you this time things won't go wrong I will make everything perfect.

Khushi: You have any idea what you are saying? Promise this mere word has the power to break and to create people. And please you don't talk about such words doesn't suit you. A promise means a lie to you Arnav.

Arnav: No, I...

Khushi held his collar. Why Arnav tell me? Why did you keep a promise that you couldn't keep? Remember you had promised me that you won't leave then what happened that you broke it? Promises are assurances but then you never thought what might have I felt when you had abruptly ended our relationship. I had asked you then to Arnav that is your decision final do you really love me? You had told me that you were sure but you backed off dammit. It's not wrong to give priority to your career but then you shouldn't have assured me this way with such huge promises when you were vague about your feelings. At least I wouldn't have been broken the way I am now. You wanted to use me right but I never gave in to your desires I never let you cross our limits that's why you left me.

He could handle her harsh words, every accusation but this that he was using her no how can she even think that way?

Arnav(he held her tightly with slight anger in his voice): Khushi you just cannot say anything you feel like. Accuse me with anything but this.

(And he saw a tear falling down her eyes now this mellowed him in seconds. He cups her cheeks)

Arnav: I know I left you then but what was between us was pure love Jaan.

She removes his hands from her cheeks.

Khushi: Exactly it was love then now its nothing.

Arnav: It was then it is now and it will stay forever.

Khushi(She smiled sarcastically): Really what a joke?

She still had tears in her eyes she was exhausted too. she slumped on the sofa. Arnav knelt down in front of her and slowly wiped her tears. This was not right this was giving her pain. He felt so vulnerable.

Arnav: Khushi please stop getting hyper stop crying Jaan please you are stressing yourself. The doctor had denied you to take the stress. You will fall ill please jaa...

Khushi: Stop calling me Jaan Mr Raizada. You have no rights. Store this in your tiny brain. And why the damn you care if I fall ill or di...

Arnav keeps his hand on her mouth to stop her from speaking further.

Please Khushi for god sake don't say such things. And I care for you because I love you. Said Arnav

Khushi: No you don't that's why you left me alone. You are faking just faking but why? You have a deal to sign or what? Tell me what profit you have you are a businessman the great A.S.R. without profit why would you talk tell me? she held his collar again.

Arnav: Yes I am trying to grab a deal and the deal is to make you happy it's to bring you back to the girl you were and my profit will be your priceless smile and that calmness you had before

Khushi: All is a lie Arnav. You will talk sweetly today and then you will go away again abandoning me to fight with myself and life.

Arnav: No Khushi it won't be a lie this time. This time your hopes won't be left incomplete. This time your trust won't be broken. This time promises won't be vague. Please Jaa, just give me one chance please Khushi. I plead before you. ( he joins his palms together in front of her)

She held his palms and denies him to do so. He too had tears in his eyes. It was really painful, tears in her eyes were always so unbearable for him.

Arnav: Jaa...Khushi I am Sorry. Please stop crying. I just can't see tears in your eyes. You can't handle my presence I will go.

(He stood up so did Khushi).

I think you are right I don't deserve a chance. I will never disturb you again. Bye (he was about to walk but her next sentence stopped him)

Khushi: I haven't yet talked about it you should get a chance or not that I will decide later. First, you tell me why you left me like that was it really for your career? Please tell me cause this question still haunts my mind. I still feel that there is a story that I don't know. Somehow I just can't convince myself that it was the true reason you left me, tell me Arnav?

Till now she was arguing, blaming crying and was hurt too but then the truth, would she be able to handle that? She looks already so broken and this harsh truth it will break her. He just can't even imagine the pain she will feel after knowing the real reason. He was afraid if she will be able to digest the truth. Her health was neither good at the moment she was looking so tired yet desperate to know the truth. He was frightened of the consequences. It's not the right time to tell her. She needs to be calm and composed. Her condition is not fit now. But he can't even say that he left her for a career this will break her too. It was not about the chance now. The things had taken a different turn. She will be shattered either way he didn't know what to do at the moment. How he wishes to rewind past and never let her go. He is tied now what should he tell her. He was all lost in thoughts. When her voice rang in his ears.

Khushi: Tell me Arnav please. ( She was hysterical now. She was crying like mads shaking him to answer her question. She was literally begging him to tell her the truth).

Arnav: Okay I will tell you the reason but sit first, please. ( she was not ready to sit). You want to know the reason then sit, will you?

She sat on the sofa. He softly removed her hands but she didn't let him go.

Khushi: You won't go anywhere tell me the truth first tell me.

Arnav: Let me bring water first please you need to be a little bit better then we will talk please Khushi.

Khushi agreed.

Arnav went to Kitchen and dialled Aman's no. and told him to come. Till then he took water in a glass for her. Arnav had already informed Aman before coming to her flat about the meet. He knew she was not well and just like yesterday, she may burst today too. So he had asked Aman that if the situation will go out of his control he will call him so that Aman can calm her. Afterall it was only Aman who could handle her at such times.

He came back made her drink water. She was still looking at him. Her questions were clearly visible in her eyes.

Arnav: Khushi you are right I never went away because of career. There was something else. A story behind I left you. Actually I misunderstood you and N.K. to be together.

Khushi: what (and she slapped him on his cheek). You distrusted my love for you. You knew it damn well what N.k. is to me. And what about you don't you know what you were to me? I need to know the whole truth. NOW...

she shouted at top of her voice.

Arnav told her everything how he had asked Viraj to call her then how Viraj had manipulated things. Then what he saw in the park. And then when now he was back from the U.S. and how he got to know the real truth from Viraj.

Khushi was not even in a state to speak. Let alone shouting explaining or something else. Tears were flowing from her eyes continuously.

Arnav had no idea how to calm her down.

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Arnav: Khushi I am sorry it's my mistake I should have confirmed with you later but...

Just then the doorbell rang. Arnav went to open the door he knew it must be Aman. Aman came inside and the sight was really horrifying for him too her state was so vulnerable red eyes, tears flowing, all messy. He immediately knelt down in front of her. Khush bachha yeh kya haalat kar li tune apni.(What have you done to yourself). Doll stop crying please for your bhai will you stop crying. Be my good bachha please Khush. And just at the moment she hugged Aman tightly crying more. Arnav tried to come close to them but Aman gestured him to stop. He knew this was necessary although the process was really painful. How could a brother bear see his little sister cry? But then he had to let her cry this time. She was keeping this pain inside her from years. She never shared even the slightest of pain she felt. She can be back to life only when she can let out her pain.