Heart Break

HI! Yuka here… I just want to rant something. Maybe not everyone know but this past August we broke up, I mean with my boyfriend Luke. It's not a sin to be jealous right?

Well there was this girl who's always with him and I had a very long patience, tried and tested, that's why I didn't say anything. But it doesn't mean that I don't feel anything. When I go to the mall, I saw the girl together with him.

At first he didn't notice I was there too. When the time comes that we bumped to each other, he felt shocked to see me there. He just stared at me, I don't know for sure how long but he's in daze.

"Hi Luke! How are you?" with my very cold voice

"….." he still didn't say anything as if he's really shock that I was there, alive

The beautiful girl that looks like a model and quite smart said "Hey who are you? Luke do you know her?"

Yep I must admit that the girl was super beautiful and I can't be compared to her. But life s**ks she didn't felt mannered.

She grasped Luke's arms tightly than before and provoked her. "Hi, I'm the girlfriend of Luke, nice to meet you." She smiled broadly at me.

The hell, I'm clearly present here. The real GF of Luke was here. Did something else got into her brains and assumed something? Well, that was just my thoughts. Because I don't want to open a scandal here, as I said earlier if I entered the Buddhist Temple now they will be surprised with my long patience. That's why I still didn't say anything and waited for them to talk.

"Oh ain't friendly huh? It's actually my first time seeing a girl as one of Luke's friend" she's annoying and pretty stupid, it felt like her beauty was the only thing god given to her.

Luke and I just stared with each other…

*stare*

*sigh*

Okay, I gave up… he won't talk to me. Well, I did fell for him that's why I felt hurt and finally lost my patience. I then fixed my demeanor.

"Luke can we talk in PRIVATE?" I reminded myself to use my cold voice.

"What!? No matter what you two must talk about, this is our date!?! And YOU are ruining it!" what an annoying beauty.

"War freak" oopps! I said it out loud enough to be heard by her.

"What did you say?!" hahaha, ain't no regrets now.

"I'm not talking to you so SHUT UP!" I'm now angry at her.

"…" finally she shut up.

"Luke!"

I pulled Luke to the parking area leaving the helpless in the situation beauty. He's just silent the whole time we walk over there.

"*sigh* I've had Enough, Let's Break Up" I finally said the forbidden fruit.

I rarely became like that, if I really became cold at that moment. Even the anime or any of my hobbies can't do. Unless you do something to save the situation it just won't do. Even if I'm really hurt at what I'm doing, it's fine to let go, it'll save us both time and feelings.

O____O! <-----Him

I know what his reactions will be like. That's why turned away from him and left just like that. Google played with me by letting me read this:

=I don't run away from you… I walk slowly and it kills me that you don't care enough to stop me=

Well, it's true right? I was just waiting for him to explain and fixed everything every single time he created a sin to me as his girlfriend.

One week after, I just cried one time after our break up. People said that if that person really likes you, at the first time you cried, that person will be there by your side and sincerely said 'I'm sorry'. Most of my friends also said that 'it's just a boy, why cry? If you're dead then, cry'.

There's someone who pranked text me, at least that's what I think…

Unknown Number:

Hey! He's already drunk. Please come here and help me! Don't you care about him anymore?

I think the person whose drunk wasn't Luke but rather Jeff and got the wrong person to send it to. Well, Jeff was a friend of Luke in College. If I didn't mention before, Luke and I were Childhood Best Friends, he said to me back then that I was reserved just for him. Even though I am touched back then, it's Back Then. Which means it's all in that Past, in the PAST.

After we broke up, he called for the first time. He totally gave me space to know what decision I'm doing. At least even though it's hard, I knew my decision was right. Well my classmate defended on his behalf, which I should at least listen to his explanation. And that's what I'm about to do…

"Hello?" wait it's still morning so my voice was seemingly cold.

[Can we talk?]

"Aren't we talking?"

[Yeah but can we meet this... umm--]

"Busy" well yeah I was quite busy, school then this, haaa… what a life.

[What about Saturday? My treat]

"I'll text you if I'm free but don't expect. I have so many things to do right now."

[Ah ok] he was quite disappointed just base on his tone.

*sigh* "ok where?" I compromise.

Can't be too obvious, the guy felt a bit life on him. Well, I'm not gonna let him confuse me anymore.

[*** Mall, 3:00 pm]

"Got it"

[Thanks]

"Shut up I don't need that"

[Then see yah]

After a few days, the day has come. I came there at *** resto and there was already a pizza there, my fave Hawaiian Pizza.

"Yo! Where's your war freak girlfriend?"

"Ah Yuka you're here. Seat." He seemingly want to avoid my provocation as he felt ashamed.

"So? Where?" I ain't gonna back down.

"I'm sorry on behalf of Melissa (beauty), our SC president. She just asked me to come with her even though I felt awkward. Even though I don't like it, I just let it passed by a laugh. I was quite shocked when I saw you that's why…" he turn his face downwards and asked "are we still okay?"

"Honestly, I don't even know that myself. But one thing I'm clear about, we broke up. We could be friends but not now, I'm still can't. You seemed happy with her and I don't have any more rights to stop you. I've had enough, the too much jealousy I felt whenever I heard other girl's voice except Liana (his sister)"

"I promise to be better to you. Yuka can't we break up?" I felt the deep begging from him. But I stop caring anymore, I had enough.

"Don't you consider it when I said it?"

"No! I'll never consider that. You said it so carelessly. I know you're angry with me that's why you said it. But please"

"Then don't. I don't care if you won't respect my decisions but that's final. I've endured a lot since we were kids. If we really are for each other then it's fine. If it's not I can't also do anything anymore that's God's will and I have nothing to do but continue to live one. I'm just taking the silent path for I don't want any fight or else I'll be the same war freak as them." Yuka shivered with that very thought…

"Too many girls I've met and even saw with you, and what do you call that?" she seemingly thought for the right word "…right, flings! It's enough!" her voice sounded hoarse and the tears were just waiting to flow within her eyes. "I may not be the perfect girlfriend you've ever have but I tried at least"

Luke then faced her with a serious expression then said "Yuka, can I court you again?" well, you just broke up then here you go again with courting. Really what's on your head?

I thought for a moment to consider his proposal. If she ever received him again in her life wont she just both of their time, considering all he had done to her?

"Okay, but I'll entertain others if ever. Well it's if ever, I don't ever assume that there would always be someone who'll be courting me even though there's no one in reality. Give me a week before you court me again. I had so many things to think of right now, excuse me, I'll go" before she even stood up…

Even though it's a bit awkward he still offered "I'll escort you home"

"Ok but don't you let my parents know, they'll surely get angry." She warned

"Ok" he slightly smiled.

Arrgg! I really regretted not eating the food huhuhuhu…

After 1 week and 2 days...

He courted me. But he avoided my parents because my parent knew we were through. The real challenge was to make up with my parents. But that might be in the distant future as he waswaiting for the right time.

That Sunday, when we went to **** province. In there were my, I can't have a title cause we can't be called cousins right. We aren't blood related. They're just a relative to my Uncle and in the house there were several cousins of them, majority was boys. Both my Uncle and Aunt love to partner me with several of them. Well, I honestly felt awkward for I just came from a break up.

Then they played with flour and throw it on my way. I'm actually cooking pancake for Uncle and Aunt but they RUIN IT! Thankfully, there was a free room to dress up. Plain pants and T-shirt, my on-the-go get-up. Timing, Luke texted me…

=When can we meet?= he asked

=HELP! Uhm no… could you pick me up here at ****province?=

=sure, wait for me=

=don't text anymore, just hurry. I needed to run out of here.=

=okay boss=

"psssh"

Finally he came! And gosh, I was shocked at his dress. Where did he come from? Oh well, I didn't bother to ask and we go. While we were chatting, I found out that he had attended a party. We stopped by the mall as he had to buy something in compensation for skipping the party. I didn't stop him, technically because I'm not part of his personal life anymore.

He asks me again the same thing. If he can be with me again but I don't want to anymore; I rejected him straight forwardly. Finally he arrived at my home.

After so many things of courting, I asked myself if I should answer him or not. I felt like my heart beat again even though it wasn't supposed to beat. Things taken another turn while I was deciding . I realize that no matter how you paste a broken glass, it will never be as beautiful again as what you have originally

To: Luke

***** mall, 7pm, old place, I will tell you my reply.

I was expecting to arrive earlier than him but here we go the opposite happened. He ordered food.

"So what do you want to talk about?" he sensed something… so direct to the point…

"I think even if I tried fixing everything from the start there won't be any result. You're giving yourself a hard time proving to that you're worth to mine forever. Although I'm positive it's not…"

He gave me a bitter smile...

"Why do you say so?" He still wants to know the reason even though he's scared.

I'm so mature when it comes to other people, I can see it in my own way although others didn't realize it... why am I so mature? First, I'm so trustful to the point I don't realized I'm being fooled. Second, I could wait a year for you to provide me an explanation. Third, I don't immediately put malice when I saw you with someone; except if it's too much like kissing or something. Finally, I could understand whatever you do as long as I know I love you and you love me. Mature, right?

"I know you know that there's a big difference to what you feel to me right now and what you felt in the past. And whatever the hell you do, you can't re-attach me there in your heart." I smirked at him "I know you to well to know that there's another there in you freaking heart right now"

"Whatever" the lying beast

"Really?" I dissed and he glared

He tried to change the topic but failed.

"Yeah yeah the great..." such a loser eh?

"You know what? I finally knew how to find my right one. I won't be in-a-relationship but I still have my flings, know me too well right?"

"Don't you dare be a b*tch again or I will put you in jail" he glared at me

And I laugh hard, it's because he called me AGAIN a B*TCH

"Yeah, stop laughing it's REALLY irritating. So what's your so-called realization?" I can't stop laughing because he's like a girl talking in front of me.

"Alright alright. In the past you said I'm too mature when it's a serious matter right?"

*he nodded at me*

"I think I'll truly be in love with the right man if he makes me act so immature. Totally opposite to my personalities."

"I don't think so you will find on because I'm the right one" and there he goes... and I'm f***ing angry now.

"Can I browse your phone?" I commanded

"Why? Are you doing a research again?" aish fun-killer.

"Nope. Inspection for further explanation" hehehe

"Here..." I then grabbed the phone.

I saw an album full of stolen pictures of a certain girl. I will admit she's cute and innocent looking.

"Stop making an excuse, you're busted. I saw the girl that replaced me there" I pointed out his heart.

"Haist! I knew it! You're really a researcher freak. This girl is nothing! She is so annoying with that face, I admit she's beautiful but UGH! I don't know, I just want to be of friends with her. Then she always runs away from me…" what a helpless guy.

"So you admit you like, the way you said it you're like GHOST STALKER!"

"It's not like I'm a stalker or rather than I like her but… but..."

"Stop explaining, I've had enough of this! So, within this day you shall not court me nor had any romantic relationship between the two of us!"

"WHAT! NO WAY!"

"YES WAY IN THE NORWAY! hahaha!"

He felt frustrated at me.

"Luke! Friends?" I calmly asked.

"Okay... I've had no choice"

"By the way, I will support you to your new love! ^____^" I winked at him

"Fine, even though I'm not really fine" the helpless boy really was stubborn huh?

End?