Yet it was the Right Choice...

Sometimes you wonder if you made the right choice in life. Saying "No" to the man who only wants to have sex with you. You know what you need and desire in life. You know it hurts as Truth sometimes and often always does. You can tell he but only wanted to lay claim to your body because he only want to release his carnal desires. You knew he was not good for you, yet you knew you wanted just a taste more of the forbidden pleasure. In the end you take the stance and stand strong...Strong enough to defend yourself and your yet near future. You cast him aside like a used white trash knowing you can't cry for the things not said. You felt powerless under his merciless kisses and continual heavy petting. You felt guilty because your mother told you "Don't kiss a man because what if you can't stop." You ignore his pleading voice as he calls your name. Your eyes glint as sharp as steel. But ultimately...Ultimately you hole yourself into the things that make you truly happy and grateful you didn't take the next step. He sends roses... flowers only ment as the symbol of love to your work and doorstep. You briefly glance at those sorry flowers and toss them as he looks on...tossing them into the garbage. Their fate is worse than yours. A fate no flower wishes to achieve when in still bloom. When no one looks, you silently curl up with swollen eyes and let the anguish out little by little. You learn to live again, to smile, to sing, and to ultimately heal the shattered heart his actions once broke. You learn to slowly trust again and one day to love a man. You know he is right for you because he brings the sunshine and the rain. You accept his love for what it is and accept all his faults with his determination to make things right. You hope that one day he will be the one you ultimately call "Husband."