Sometimes I feel there's a good thing about becoming someone ignorant since I always hear from people this sentence.
[Ignorance is bliss]
Although that sentence makes sense now I feel it depends on the situation, because the current situation makes me feel that my youth time is really wasted.
Even though I'm still teen since my age is only 18 now, but if I'm the type which should be called as a rebellious kid then this situation will never happen because I'll read the paper's content before signing it.
But, with my habit being cowardice now brings me a headache which I think nothing comes out as a solution for this situation.
This woman who should be older than me, for some reason I can see steam coming out of her head.
I felt that if I say something wrong, my head will fly from its body so I'm thinking about how to get out of this situation or maybe make her rage gone a little at least.
"Err, miss! Could you please explain why the contract content is something almost like a marriage contract? I thought that contract papers are something to make me agree to not sue you after you beat me!"
Unknown to him, his choice of words is the right choice, since if he's still doing as his habit tells him to worse the wife of his will be angry and their relationship will never be progressed. Though the wife will still be distant from him since her mindset about this marriage is only to the surface in front of her grandfather.
"*exhaling sound..... So Putra Supardi, as the contract mentioned in our marriage contract! From now on you will become my husband BUT that thing regarding making children is something which should be a mistake so don't get the wrong idea"
".....Okay"
'What's wrong with this woman! is her period when it comes suddenly, her beauty is wasted since her voice is too cold for a beautiful face like that! Is this the moment where I'm going to enter Hell or Heaven? Well, at least she wouldn't beat me for no reason, since if she's that type then she'll never talk, but her hand would do the talk instead'
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While she told me to take my important stuff and clean myself, for now, she's going out from my home after telling me that she'll wait for me and she didn't forget to tell me to hurry.
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After cleaning myself albeit it's barely clean, I change clothes to wear into something which barely called clothes since their color is almost faded and its material has been stretched.
Seeing myself within a mirror, I'm grimacing at my current state.
Thinking that at least my life will be better, though I still doubt it will maybe I will say goodbye with an abuser in this area for now.
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Although it's the only contract which tells me that I'm married already, it's far from what I've imagined for my marriage life.
Even though my life is miserable like this, I have dreams to have a happy life with one wife and my children or maybe also with grandchildren if it's permitted.
However, it seems that I don't have the luxury to wish something like that. I just think that my life will be better than my current life, even though I still hope this marriage will be a happy life for me.