Dreams of her

I really miss her. The worst part is, I don't think she misses me. I mean, you can tell you fell for someone. When you have dreams about them, but I guess dreams don't matter. Though those dreams hurt like shit when you wake up.

I heard from someone that she calls me disgusting. Like when asked about me. She says it in our language, but when translated it means 'dirty, disgusting, filthy, gross'

So yeah..........

I felt great about that.

Also, I had a dream. About her. It was great. Then it turned into a nightmare. I had tears when I woke up. Cuz what I dreamt of just hurt so bad. The dream felt so real too.

I dreamt I was in a store and I saw her. Then we started talking and it turned into an argument, cuz I told her I still love her. Then in the dream she said and did something. Then I woke up with a tear running down my right eye. While my left eye was close to dropping another tear. I just stayed laying on the bed trying to get my mind together. I mean it just felt so real. Imagine being in a store and then ending up in bed. I was left with a messy mindset and a pain. It wasn't strong, but a subtle pain. Light enough just to feel it and know it's there. I mean it may not be a strong pain, but it's one that lingers for a long time. Cuz I feel this pain everytime, but I only just recognized it now. It's been about 2 hours since I had that dream/nightmare. And it made me want to write a poem about my dreams of her. So tell me what you think, or not.

"I dont know if you'll read this

but girl I fell

I miss you from your hugs

your laughs your smell

I miss the way you were glad

and mad or yelled.

your smile, your hair

your voice, I fell

I really do I miss you

so great that it seems

It hurts when I wake

cuz I see you in my dreams"

Original Poem by me

Title: Dreams of her

Thanks you for whoever reads this.

Sincerely: Calamity