Lu Yi Feng sighed. It wasn't that he didn't want to tell Tang Yi Jun, but it was just... he couldn't! Thinking about those nightmares, he would always feel himself going crazy. He wasn't able to mutter a word about it. Not only that, a part of the reasons was because of his own pride. He didn't want anyone to know his darkest secret --- not even his doctor.
"Just like I said... I don't remember," Lu Yi Feng lied. The nightmares were still vivid in his mind. but he wasn't going to admit that.
Tang Yi Jun studied people's behavior and he was really good at it, so how could Lu Yi Feng's lies escape his eyes? He knew about it, but he couldn't force the stubborn man or he would never come back to his session. He wasn't greedy about the payment, but he was worried. Without him, Lu Yi Feng wouldn't have anyone to talk to and calm him when he was on the verge of breaking down. The proud man wouldn't let other people knew about his weakness, but to him, sometimes he was able to lower his guard down a little bit.
"You can tell me when you remember something, so I can help and guide you to treat your allergy, okay?" Tang Yi Jun decided to step back for now. He would like to see whether the incremental exposures would do wonder on him.
Tang Yi Jun had been trying to push him into trying these exposures therapy for a long time, but Lu Yi Feng kept rejecting his idea. He could nothing if the patient didn't want to listen to his suggestion. Tang Yi Jun felt glad that this opportunity came and he hoped that Lu Yi Feng would really grasp on this chance and try to break down his own barrier.
Tang Yi Jun hesitantly said, "If you want to be fully cured, you also need to have the will to try the treatment. Without that, even I... can't help you."
Lu Yi Feng knew that Tang Yi Jun was saying all that for his own good, but he merely nodded stiffly. He sighed and finally decided to relent. "I'll try."
"You have to update me about your progress from time to time, so I can monitor your condition, okay?" Tang Yi Jun reminded him.
"I will." After saying that, Lu Yi Feng looked at his watch and said cooly, "It's already one hour. Time is up!"
Tang Yi Jun could only shake his head. He was the doctor and wasn't it supposed to be his job to say that? "Yi Feng... that's supposed to be my words!" Tang Yi Jun looked at him in disdain.
Lu Yi Feng only grinned at him, "Sorry... but I have to pick up Feng Xiao Qing and Xiao Xi Xi. After that, I will bring them home." He already promised them that he would only be away for one hour and he intended to keep his promise. He left them with Zi Hao and he was afraid that Zi Hao would put weird ideas into their mind, so it was better for him to be back on time.
"I'll see you later," Lu Yi Feng bade his goodbye. Before he left, Tang Yi Jun reminded him once again that he had to report his progress by phone. Lu Yi Feng just nodded his head without turning around, telling Tang Yi Jun that he understood. After all, Tang Yi Jun was the one who helped him to hold his sanity together over the year.
Lu Yi Feng drove back to his company with a slightly better mood than before. As long as this fake relationship would bring him benefits, he would do it more seriously. What Tang Yi Jun said kept echoing inside his mind... he had to have the will or he would never cure himself.
'Feng Xiao Qing... Xiao Xi Xi... bring it on!' Lu Yi Feng smiled inwardly.