Yun Jing Fei and I

Today my family gathered in our family meeting room. Talk about important things. Regarding marriage proposal. This application is not an ordinary marriage proposal. But it was a great proposal because it was offered by members of the Royal family.

Before going far to tell, I will clarify who I am.

My name is Yun Xia He. The second daughter of Yun's main family. I should have been called the first daughter if only father had not adopte a daughter of his relatives at the border, Yun Jing Fei.

Yun Jing Fei was a year older than me. Her father died when he was attacked by robbers while Yun Jing Fei was still in the womb of her mother.

Her fate was getting worse because her mother died after giving birth. Everyone said that she was a bad omen because of that incident. All relatives take decision to put her in a monastry on Luo Shan Mountain. They said that the best solution is to throw her away, far away as possible from the Yun family.

My father as head of Yun Member Family rejected their decision. My father doesn't trust such baseless beliefs. For him, it's not Yun Jing Fei's fault that her father and mother died. After discussing with my mother, my father took the decision to adopte Yun Jing Fei as their daughter.

A year after my father adopte Yun Jing Fei, I was born and two years later my younger brother, Yun Fengyin was born. My father said that the birth of the two of us seemed that Yun Jing Fei didn't bring bad luck. On the contrary it brings blessings to father. Five years my father and mother get married, they are not given a child. My father said that Yun Jing Fei is present from heaven and his both children is bonus.

Father and mother love us. What was given to me was also given to Yun Jing Fei. Both clothes and education. But all my relatives certainly love me more than Yun Jing Fei.

Whatever I want my other family members will fulfill those. Even though my father was angry because I was pampered by all his relatives, they did not give up to bring a lot of gifts for me. They did not like Yun Jing Fei and openly showed their dislike to Yun Jing Fei.

Of course I am happy. Since I was little I didn't like Yun Jing Fei. Before I even knew that he was just an adopted child in my family. At that time I was annoyed because my father always praised Yun Jing Fei.

"Yun Jing Fei is smart at embroidering ..." one day my father said that.

"Yun Jing Fei is good to everyone even to the servants ..." in another day my father said that.

"Yun Jing Fei is polite ..." every day may fahter said that.

"Yun Jing Fei is beautiful ..." my mother also praise her.

And a line of other praise given to me makes me uncomfortable. My heart feel hurt when hear the praise that is always given to Yun Jing Fei. I know that they praise me too, but for some reason I do not like to hear the same praise given to Yun Jing Fei. Not only my father and mother, my younger brother praise her too.

So when I found out from an auntie that Yun Jing Fei just an adopted child, I hated her even more. I do variety ways to hurt her. Of course clandestinely. If I am found out by my father, I would be punished by him.

I even managed to keep Yun Jing Fei quiet and not complain. I do anythink to threats her. I do not count how many insults did I throw at her, but she never complained to father and mother. This makes me even more violance to hurt him.

I have several female friends. They are come from noble families in the capital city. They agreed with me. They don't like Yun Jing Fei like me. We often take Yun Jing Fei to travel in the capital city. But not as friends, we treat her like our servants.

"Yun Jing Fei brought this ..." one day I asked her.

"Yun Jing Fei bought this ..." another day I asked her.

"Yun Jing Fei you must obey me..." every day I said that to her.

What our servants are supposed to do, I'll leave it to him. I insulted her in public. I made her fall into the river. I slapped her occasionally. I'm really happy to do all that. Then when at home and in front of my father, of course, I will say softly to her.

"What does Jiejie need? Meimei will buy her for Jiejie in the shop, "I said with a fake smile in front of my father. My father who saw that would nod and smile at us.

"No need, Meimei. Jiejie doesn't need anything," the answer Yun Jing Fei always told me. Then my father will reply.

"Jing Fei, just tell Xia He what you need. She's your meimei (young sister) and must learn to respect her Jiejie (sister)," said father and Yun Jing Fei in a trembling voice asking for embroidery thread. Of course I bought it. Show it to father and mother before giving it. Then quietly I will pinch his hand hard.

Like I said, I slapped him. Once upon a time my father saw Yun Jing Fei's cheeks red with a hand stamp. Father, of course, was angry. Finding out who made her daughter's cheeks swell. I will pretend in front of my father. Knock and cry.

"Xia He is the wrong father. Xia He accidentally made an old woman fall and spontaneously she want to slap me, but Jiejie blocking her. So she got that slap," I replied softly. I pretending to crying in front of him. If I pretending to cry, my father will believe my words and ask servant to called doctor.

So on. I became an expert in persecuting Yun Jing Fei and covered it with various lies. For me she really should be treated like that. She is trash that should never exist.

Then news like lightning in broad daylight struck me today. Huángtaizǐ (Crown Prince) proposed to my adoptive sister. Thats shocking news made me almost faint. I've long liked that Prince Guo Wei.

A year ago he was finally appointed from Qinwang (Prince Rank One) to Huángtàizǐ (Crown Prince). I always try to be near with him when we are in a Palace party or at the Nobles party. I thought if I was near him as often as I could, he would be attracted to me someday.

Then why did Huángtaizi choose Yung Jing Fei?

How can Huángtaizǐ know my adoptive sister?

Yun Jing Fei never left the house if I didn't invite her. She never attended a party. Both parties at the palace or parties at the nobleman's residence because I threatened her so she pretended to be sick. There is no one opportunity that allows their meeting.

Just like me, my father is also curious. After the Palace envoy submitted his application, father gathered our family in meeting room. As a good father, he asked Yun Jing Fei how they could meet. Yun Jing Fei answered with a story like a fairy tale. Makes me even more upset and sad.

"Father, I knew my father was shocked. Jing Fei-er was surprised. Jing Mei-er met him when I fell into the river. He helped me. At that time Jing Fei-er thought that he was just a ordinary scholar who attend state exam. We were friends and told each other about our problems. He wanted to propose Jing Fei-er and Jing Fei-er approve it. Jing Fei-er only found out he was Huángtaizi this day, "Yun Jing Fei answered.

Her answer slapped me hard. I dropped Yun Jing Fei into the river that day. I do it even though I knew she couldn't swim.

Why this is happen, even though I tried hard to attract Prince Guo Wei's attention. Anyone will admit that I'm more beautiful than Yun Jing Fei. I better understand ancient literature and literature compared embroidery. I memorized all the foundations of the Kingdom more than she did. My grades are always high in a variety of subjects. Even I am sure that I can defeat the smartest scholar in this Kingdom.

I have frankly asked for help from my father and uncle who worked at the Palace to match me with Prince Guo Wei. I not only like it. I want to become a Huangtaizifei (Crown Princess) and later become Empress. I want to show everyone that I am the woman the Yun family is most proud of.

I should have obtained that position. Not Yun Jing Fei.

It turns out that me who makes everything fall apart. If I don't drop Yun Jing Fei at that time into the river, then Prince Guo Wei will never meet Yun Jing Fei. I feel like I want to die after knowing that the failure of my plan is due to my own actions.

"Jing Fei, are you ready to live at Palace? There are so many problems and intrigues in the Palace. Even if our family is respected and becomes a Royal Advisor, we cannot be behind you. You have to fight alone there. You know that we are a noble family neutral, isn't it? One of our ancestors who became a Concubine was executed because he was accused of poisoning fellow Consorts but we did nothing to help him. Even though our ancestors acknowledged the truth of the accusation, " my father said with concerned tone and Yun Jing Fei nodded her head.

"Honestly, Father is worried because Jing Fei-er isn't as strong as Xia He-er," my father said again and when my name was called, Yun Jing Fei straightened her head and smiled sincerely.

"Father believe me, Jing Fei-er is a strong woman. I would never give up and stand on of my problems there. Trust me!" Yun Jing Fei said and her eyes momentarily looked at me sharply. Even though I hate to justify it, what her words is true. I persecuted her all this time but she did not run away from home or commit suicide.

"Jing Fei-er likes Huángtaizi?" my mother asked her in a soft voice and Yun Jing Fei nodded her head strongly.

"My husband, if Jing Fei has said that she like Huangtaizi then there is no reason for us to anxious. Her love will make her strong. After all we know that Huángtaizi is a good man. He has lowered his pride and saved our Jing Fei from the river. I believe Huangtaizi will protect our Jing Fei," said the mother softly. A wide smile graced Yun Jing Fei's face pissed me off. Make me cry.

"This is not true. I should be the companion!" I yelled uncontrollably. I can no longer resist the emotional turmoil inside me. Father looked at me with glaring eyes and mother looked at me with a look of disbelief.

"Huángtaizi love your Jiejie, Xia He. You should be happy with your Jiejie!" scold my mother.

"You can't. This isn't true!" my opponent make my father's face red and stood up from his seat.

"Ling, bring your miss to her room. Xia He, you must reflect on your mistakes there! Jing Fei don't defend your Meimei this time," my father aasked my personal maid servant with loud booming voice. I was forced to obey. In terms of discipline, father is very strict. He did not hesitate to ask the servant to hit his children with a stick. I had experienced that once.