Do I look love him deeply?

"Yao Mama, how far Junwangye's destination is? How much time he need to get there?" I asked Yao Mama when we walk to my place. Yao Mama who was walking beside me sighed.

I see her face. She looks sad. Her expression immediately made me worried.

 "That place is quite far, Junwangfei. It take a week to get there,"

 "One week? Is it Junwangye's destination is located on the border of this country? Why they need that much time?" I said without being able to hide my disappointment's feelings. I'm sure that Bixia intentionally gave a distant place for Hui An's.

"That place is not on the border. However, Junwangye and his entourage must to around a big's mountain. The destination is quite isolated, " Yao Mama answered uneasily.

I imagined the place my husband was aiming for. Hui An has to go around a big mountain. Many people said that big mountain have large rock. Because of that, I feel that trip is very dangerous.

What if there was a landslide when they passed the mountain? However, mountain area is often became a den of thieves or rebels. Jing Fei's biological father died because a group of thieves too. Thinking of that, my feelings became very uneasy.

"This trip must be dangerous. They could be facing landslides, thieves and even rebels," I say my anxiety unconsciously. Yao Mama pulled my hand then she held my hand.

"Junwangfei, please don't worry. Junwangye will be careful in this journey. He really loves you. Therefore, he will take good care of himself so that he can meet Junwangfei again," She said in a calm voice. Then she smiled. Her answer makes me a little calmer.

"Huangtaizi (the crown prince's) people also joined Junwangye's journey. They will definitely protect Junwangye," Yao Mama continued her words which made me feel more calm.

"You're right, Junwangye will be fine. He loves me. Therefore, he will return safely so he can meet me," I said in a firm voice. I tried to convince myself that everything would be okay.

"You also have to take good care of your health, Junwangfei. Junwangye will feel sad if you are sick," Ling, who was walking on my left, joined our conversation. I looked at my loyal servant. She smiled.

"You're right, Ling," I agreed with her words. I will take good care of myself. Not just looking after myself well. I will also take good care of our house. I want to make changes in this wangfu.

'As far as possible, I will repair the damage,' I said silently, staring at the wangfu gate.

Hui An struggles with risking his life. Therefore, I must not stand still and wait. I also have to do my part as a wife.

"Yao Mama, are there any builders you know? I want to invite him to see this wangfu and give an estimated value of improvement," I said excitedly to Yao Mama.

"Actually, I know someone who knows about building. We better talk about that problem in Junwangfei's place. The weather is still cold and I'm afraid that if we still here, you can get sick," Yao Mama said after a moment of silence to think.

"OK! We will talk about the problem inside," I said excitedly. Yao Mama nodded her head.

***

I tapped the table nervously. It's been three days since Hui An left. However, I have not gotten any news from him.

I know that this trip takes one week. However, he can send messages through couriers or merchants in the city that is their stopover. He doesn't have to arrive at his destination to send me a message, right?

"Junwangfei, Liu Gongzhi was arrived. Do you want to see him now?" Ling said while putting a cup of tea on the table. I looked at Ling. Feeling confused.

"Who is Liu Gongzhi?"

 "You asked Yao Mama to invite someone with expertise to repair buildings. Yao Mama had said his name and you agree so she invite him to come to this palace today," Ling said in a low voice. Her face showed that she was concerned my situation now.

I thought about the answer slowly. Instantly I felt ashamed because I forgot my own plan. I'm so worried about Hui An so I forget a lot of things.

"What is the agreement today?" I asked again. Ling answered by nodding her head. I sighed. I held back the shame I felt.

"Has he arrived? You had ask another maid's to serve drinks and food for Liu Gongzhi?" I asked Ling. Ling nodded.

"Liu Gongzhi is waiting in the front room. Some maid's serve him with tea and some snack. I also told Yao Mama. Yao Mama will company you to meet Liu Gongzhi," Ling reported her actions. I smile. I feel relieve because my trusted servant is getting smarter in managing her work. No need give more instruction, she know what she must do.

"OK. Let's meet this Gongzhi," I said and then stood up.

"Junwangfei is worried about Junwangfye, right?" Ling asked me as we walked towards the front of the wangfu.

"I can't hide my anxiety from you, right? My attitude is strange, right? I was too much to worry about hin, right?" I felt ashamed of being found out.

"Not excessive, Junwangfei," Ling answered curtly.

"It's a relief that you rate it that way,"

"Afterall, Junwangye is your husband. It's natural if you aware about him. Also you really love Junwangye. Everyone in wangfu said that," Ling answered again. She smiled.

"Everyone in wangfu said that I love Junwangye?" I repeated Ling's words. Ling nodded her head. Instantly my cheeks feel hot.

"All people said that Junwangye and Junwangfei is loving each other and never covered their feeling in front of us," Ling said happily. I feel a little confuse.

Do I look like that? Like a couple who loves each other deeply. I don't feel that I love Hui An. Isn't it natural that I'm worried? Hui An is my husband. He is also a good person who loves me.

I just don't want who loved me get bad things.

"I'm sorry if I said impolitely," Ling said worriedly because I didn't reply her words. I shook my head.

I reassured her. However, my heart is actually not calm.