21: I hate myself

I slept for another few hours, I woke up at 5pm and saw Hardin with a plaster around his left leg other than that he looked fine. I hugged him , he sat there shocking. I was so happy that he was ok that I started crying. He hugged me back and said " Oh come on my cry baby, everyone has been crying and thanking me from yesterday I'm fine ok, now please stop crying."

I sat back and he handed me a tissue. I caught his right hand and said sorry and then Mom came inside along with Aunty and Ange and sat near me. I didn't let go of Hardin's hand, mom caught my other hand and said " Honey, you know we all love you right?" I surprisingly looked towards Aunty and Ange who were standing behind mom " I know mom"

"Then honey what caused you to be so stressed that you lost consciousness? and tell me the truth, I know everything between you, Victor and Hardin "

I looked at Hardin; he said, " Had to tell them, sorry!" it's fine, the more they know the less pain for me and boy was I wrong.

"I was actually stressed because I wanted to fit in the family . I was stressed because I wanted to forget whatever Victor did. I was stressed because I thought that no-one would like me. I was stressed because I didn't want to hurt Hardin and Nysa. I was stressed because I know about Dad's and Uncle's hatred for each other." I couldn't keep it in and started crying. " I....I....because of me Hardin is hurt.....because of me Dad and Uncle were fighting....because of me Victor hates me. I hate myself. "

I couldn't see anyone because of the tears but could hear sniffing noses. Hardin hugged me and said " it's not your fault my honey bear."

I wiped my tears and Dad, Uncle, Jack and Pliny bust into the room all of them hugging me.

" It's not fault honey, your uncle and I had a rough childhood and used to always suffer because of our grandparents so we never understood how brotherly love felt and now I think we will surely talk about our indifferences " Dad said breaking from the hug.

Victor then came in the room with Nysa following him with her arms crossed like an angry teacher ,so everyone looked at him but he looked like he was beaten up. Ange came up to me and whispered that Nysa was a karate student and had beaten up Victor after Pliny told everyone everything Victor had done. Honestly I felt bad for him but he deserved it more then anything.

Victor came to the front of the bed, looked at me and said " I'm sorry that I played with you and threatened to burn you alive" at which everyone gasped. Jack slapped Victor's head and said " You are grounded until the reopening of school". I laughed , I didn't mean to but even when he is 16, he is still getting grounded. I said "Sorry, I just found that funny"

The nurse entered the room and said that I would be taken home so Dad went to fillout the forms. Uncle spoke to Dad and then went to get the prescribed medicines along with the guards Dad ordered to follow uncle. Pliny, Ange and Nysa went to get Hardin's stuff. Mom went to talk to the doctor. Sam and Samuel along with the their guards went to get the cars ready. Leaving me, Hardin and Victor along with my two guards in the room.

And boy was that an awkward 5 minutes and it seemed like forever. Hardin just sat there thinking something staring at the head, Victor sat on the couch in a playboy posture and the two guards fidgeting with their new uniform.

Mom and Pliny entered and took Victor and Hardin. The guards remained with me for another 10 minutes then Dad came and insisted to carry me to the car, so I accepted.