im alone and will always be alone

there is only one thing I enjoy in life and that is being alone

'is being alone a good thing you asked' well if your a loner you often have plenty of time to think, ponder, brood, meditate deeply, and figure things out to one's satisfaction.     

but some fear finding oneself alone, but they didn't realize that they are living in a world full of lie making there life more of..... you know a 'lie'

call me Miguel virgin since birth and orphan after birth ,the orphanage told me that my mother died after giving birth to me, and my bastard of a father is the one that left me in this orphanage, and didn't came back

in a young age im often bullied by the children that was stronger than me because of my inborn weak physique

as the result I become isolated in the group of children, I was a bit sad at first but as time comes by I achieve solitude

'being alone didn't seems bad after all' but after some time of being alone I asked myself

'is it really fine being alone forever?'

thanks to the government I managed to come to school without paying anything, I'm also doing some part time jobs to earn a bit money to prepare for my future... if I had one

third year of my high school life a athletics girl greets me every time we see each other she had a curly blond hair, clear and white skin, cute face and a pretty charming voice

there are no days that I didn't see her smile, and I could always see her actively socializing with other of our classmates, so I asked my self why is she always greeting and talking to me?

"good morning Miguel" she said with his cute voice

"same to you " I answer weakly 'what is so good in the morning? '

"smile a little Miguel you will turn ugly if you don't"

"ill try" I answered 'I will do this as a favor for greeting me every day'

I tried to put the biggest smile I could do, but maybe of my lifeless eyes , unkempt hair and the fact that I force myself , had made my smile a bit sinister

the girl was stunned, but a few second later she began to smiled again

"on the second thought your more handsome if your not smiling, bye! "

isn't she a cute girl , but that what I also thought at first,

so in last semester, I gathered every bits of courage that was left in this body of mine to confess my feelings for her

but her answer so me is a sorry and let just be friends

her friends are sniggering in the sides saying

"omg girl the creep just confessed his love for you"

"stop it its giving me the chills"

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the second day she didn't greet me anymore and in that time I feel more isolated than ever every passing day

if a girl is nice to you it doesn't mean that she's isn't nice to anyone else ... and this my friends , is the reason I made another rules in my life and its to ignore nice girls

let's move to the day that I lose my life, its pretty pathetic actually, I died from from being hit by a truck after saving a cute dog from harm

I manage to save the dog but I lose my life in the process, well that is the only thing I remembered after I loss consciousness

the second time I opened my eyes , I was now laying on the the white hill that looks more like a cloud while being surrounded by flowing waters where small golden fishes are visible , there are trees but no grass

I'm puzzled for a second but after remembering what happened to me I concluded that theres, only one explanation in my current situation I'm dead

but surprisingly I feel calm without a shred of fear in the things that happened to me u tried to look around to see if there's anyone

the scenery is a bit foggy but I could see a old man wearing nothing but white , while holding a bamboo fishing pole he is sitting calmly on the other hill far from me

i skip my way towards him jumping from one hill to another one after arriving in his side i could now see him clearly, his bald but had long white beard ,muscular body and a familiar red mark in his face

"Kratos!"

hearing my shout the old man turned his head towards me

"you know me? well that save me from more explanations" he said calmly then resume fishing

"the god of war! Kratos" I asked in disbelief

"your right" he answered

even im very shock in the moment but my face didnt show it because i already forgot how to make that face long time ago,

"your too calm kid, I love that attitude, it great to have a calm mind while facing... your... ENEMY!!! "

"HAAAAAAAAA!!! " he yelled while giving off intense killing intent, his body was emitting red smokey aura ,blue vains start showing while his muscles where bulging he looks like a beast ready to kill

"calm down Mr Kratos!! " I yelled while trying my best to get out of his way , while he goes wrecking any thing in his sigth one particular tree was punched by him and turned to dust within seconds fortunately he didn't cast his sight at me

after smashing 30 trees or so he calmed down, his killing intent fades, the expression on his face was slowly being tranquil,and the berserk aura stopped showing in his body

he walk back towards me surprisingly his clothes was still intact or should i say he looks that same as before he go berserk

"ahh.. sorry about that It just that , its has been a long time since I stop...ki-"

"it-its ok Mr Kratos you don't have to mention ki- something anymore" I said hurriedly, I don't want him to go wreaking something again

Kratos cleared his throat

"so let's get straight to the point ,I need you *the chosen one* to reincarnate in world of dao to save it from destruction" he said seriusly while pointing a certain planet above the sky

"so in short you want me to become a hero?"

"well you could say that"

"no, thank's" i answered in a dead pan voice