Silence

Lately I've been dreaming

A world of silence

Except for the sound of rain

As it pitter patters off the ground

Closing my eyes

I take a deep breath in

Petrichor fills my lungs with longevity

Walking in circles around the room

My mind keeps racing laps

My senses shut off

Numbness spreads

As water flows

Dragging me along its course

My world has been grey and brown

But this unending scenery

As I travel face up

With my back on the water

It brings me a moment of peace

And then the pain returns

So I write again

Eagerly waiting to let my pain out

My pen runs across the paper

That wasn't write so I cross it out

Sit and wait as my mind creates a world

My eyes view upon this world

As I write it down

And tell a story

In the dark I converse with shadows

My body jolts

I wake up

And my world of silence is gone

My emotions turn back on

And my senses return

My eyes long for this world I create

The silence brought me temporary peace

But it never feels like it's long enough

I return to the living world

And I hate it

Because I cannot change this warmth

As I travel across the water

Floating and drifting

Into the endless silence

That releases my pain

For no matter how loud I yell

No one will ever know

No matter how much I cry

No one would tell another soul

No matter how much

I speak to the shadows

No one would call me insane.