It All Ends in Tears

Katsuki didn't know what to think. He was having mixed feelings over what Izuku just told him. Izuku lied about their bond being broken? Why? Why did he do that? Did he just not want their bond anymore? Was Katsuki such a bad person that Izuku no longer wanted to be around him even with a fucking Soulmate Quirk?

The blonde carefully studied his…boyfriend? Were they still together? Katsuki flinched inwardly at that thought. He tried to read the emotions showing on the other's face. He didn't find anything but regret and anxiety. Something within him broke quietly, before he slowly pieced the pieces back together. He still wanted Izuku. Did it matter that he lied about their bond being broken?

Maybe the Katsuki ten months ago might have been able to brush it off and move on, but the Katsuki now knew that his feelings for Izuku weren't that shallow. He was at least half in love with Izuku. Maybe his feelings for Izuku weren't as deep yet, but he had a feeling that time went on, his feelings would only deepen.

He was already this far in. He didn't think he was going to be able to get out now. He didn't quite want to either. He wanted Izuku. That's why it hurt so much when he heard that their bond was broken. Izuku had given him a sense of safety that he'd never found with anyone else.

He waited for Izuku to answer him, but he already knew that no matter what Izuku said, he was still going to end up clinging onto him. Katsuki chucked dryly at himself. He never took himself to end up being the clingy type. He'd always thought he wouldn't ever end up with anybody. He hadn't been able to imagine himself in a committed relationship. Now, however, he didn't think he would ever be as fond of another person as he was of Izuku.

When Izuku had said the bond was broken, it had taken every inch of his willpower not to press his lips against Izuku's to see if they would be able to reproduce the bond. Katsuki squuzed Izuku's hand in comfort even as his own heart squeezed as he waited for Izuku to calm down.

Katsuki watched with worried eyes as Izuku's frame shuddered, feeling worried and helpless. He wanted to help, but what could he do? Izuku was the one who had tried to break their bond. Since he didn't know why, how could he comfort him?

Eventually, Izuku's frame relaxed as his tears came to a halt. Katsuki tried his best to wait patiently even as anxiety ate at him. He tried to press it down so that it wouldn't affect Izuku, but he knew he wasn't entirely successful when Izuku flinched.

"Kacchan. Do you…do you think I'm a burden?"

Katsuki felt entirely stunned when the question registered. What did Izuku think he was asking? Did he really think that Katsuki would think of him that way? Katsuki winced when he remembered how he acted months ago. Before he'd changed, that did seem like something he would think, and the blonde teen felt glad that he wasn't that way anymore.

"Don't be an idiot. I told you, didn't I? I like you. I really, really like you." Katsuki paused when tears filled Izuku's eyes again, sending him into a panic. "Why are you crying?! What did I say wrong this time?" Katsuki hastily wiped the tears trailing down the other's cheeks with his free hand, inwardly fretting.

Izuku let out a watery laugh. "I'm just. Really happy. I've been an idiot, haven't I?" The green-haired teen pressed his face into the other's warm hand that was still wiping his tears. "I just thought – you know, I've been forcing this Soulmate bond on you. You don't have a choice at all. I thought that the bond was causing you nothing but trouble. Aren't you just feeling guilty that I tried to commit suicide back then? If I didn't have this bond with you, you'd never give me a second look, right?"

Katsuki grit his teeth. The things that were coming out of Izuku's mouth were causing him to see red. Was that really what he thought? Katsuki reflected. Those were the things he'd been thinking too, only in reverse.

"Idiot! Moron!" the blonde huffed a breath, pulling his boyfriend closer into a hug. If he was secretly more secure when they were closer together, no one but Izuku would know. "We're both idiots, so let's call it even, okay? I had the same doubts as you, just the other way around. If I never kissed you when we were playing when we were younger, there's no way you would want to be with me. I bullied you for so many years. You'd be a masochist if you still wanted to be with me after all of that."

"Kacchan, I still think I would love you even without the bond. When Aizawa-sensei used his Quirk on me, I think I still felt my love for you, just that it was hidden down under the panic I was feeling at that moment."

Katsuki snorted, still disbelieving. He was completely certain there was no way he would, but they could agree to disagree for now. The blonde pulled away for now, suddenly attacked with a feeling of shyness.

"You don't believe me," Izuku said, frowning. Katsuki's eyes zeroed in on the pouty looking lips, his mind instantly going into the gutter.

"Kacchan," he heard distantly. "Kacchan, are you listening to me?"

He snapped out of it, feeling his face heating up. Ahh, fuck, what was he doing! That was so fucking embarrassing!

"Well, we'll never know, anyway. Isn't that better? You better never fake our bond being broken again, you hear me?" Katsuki said in as firm a voice as he could manage, looking away from his boyfriend. He was so fucking relieved that the bond wasn't broken. He hated himself a little that he couldn't bring himself to be happy that it wasn't broken. Selfish, that's what he was.

But he knew now that he'd never let Izuku go in the future, even if the other ever came to hate him, he didn't think he had it in him to let Izuku go again. Doing it once had been hard enough. He'd felt like his soul had shattered. Like he had crushed his own heart into dust himself. He never wanted to feel that way again. The thought of Izuku being with anyone else made him want to grind his teeth as he stabbed the person in his imagination. Izuku was his, dammit.

"We're good now, right?" he asked tentatively, squeezing the green-haired teen's hand slightly. The resulting smile from Izuku made him feel like a blind man that had seen the sun for the first time. He blinked dazed eyes as stars danced around his vision.

Fuck why is Izuku so cute?! Fuck, fuck, fuck. Katsuki's face darkened as he thought about the various boys and girls that would try to steal Izuku away from him.

They better fucking stay away. Or he would help them do it. Permanently.