Chapter 9

Its was fucking hurt and it also really hard to forget a crush that were your third crush.I never had a third crush before or ever in my life he was the first boy and he was my third crush in high school for me crushing on him.

After awhile he knew that i still have a crush on him.He would do silly think or say things like a random girl names and say that he knew her like in middle school or looks at other girls.

I feel like he just want me to forget about him and he started to say that.Sometime he would even say that he have someone on his mind or even worst he taken.

He wasn't even taken but i know he say that for a reason but he didn't know it was hurting me from the inside.I was really sad but i knew that a guy wouldn't even dare to be my boyfriend or even say that he have a crush on me like crushing on me but instead they like the crush thing on me fade away first then they will say it.

I know im fat,huge and chubby but dont let my body and appearance effect the way you having a freaking crush on me but u were hurting me just because of that.I was really trying my best to lose weight and slowly my weight lose has been lose 79kg, 74kg,69kg to 67kg and i was so happy with it but nobody knew im losing weight aready.They see me as me and i was really frustrated with it.I couldn't take it but to ignore it instead.

They didn't even saw my hard work to lose this weight and the pay off for losing weight and some would just look at me differently and i thought because of my weight but no its was something else that i cant even remember.