An Endless Desperation

"Gu Juexi, you have never let the uniform down, never let your troop down, never let your country down, never let your brothers down, but how could you let me down?" Ye Yuwei demanded bitterly. She was trying her best not to cry. She was suppressing it so hard that she could hardly form a complete sentence. 

Because of fear. 

"Please, Gu Juexi. I am begging you. I promise not to mess with you ever again, and I promise not to bring up the divorce anymore. I won't complain about your harsh words, just don't leave me alone…" Ye Yuwei held Gu Juexi's hand that was covered in wounds, just so that she wouldn't be overwhelmed by her fear. 

She felt better only by holding his hand. 

[I believe in you. Ye Yuwei, you can do it.]

"I can't do it, Gu Juexi. I can't!" Ye Yuwei cried out. She was trying so hard to speak and it hurt her even to say those few words. "I can't do this, Gu Juexi. I can't." 

"Inject adrenaline," said the army doctor loudly.