Happiness

'It doesn't matter even if I never exist for my world as long as you take me into your heart.'

Bai He Lian

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The morning rays awaken me and soon I find myself in my apartment. My apartment now becomes an empty room without my stuff.

I realized that I don't have a lot of time. I must go from this place soon. Hopefully Chen Sheng Lin will never come here. I realized that I am still in ancient clothes right now so do with my coiled hair. I am shocked a little bit but I don't want to waste my time here. I have to find Xia De Ming soon.

I started to look for him. I don't care if heavy rain torture me. I am trying not to cry but I am failing. My tears now mixed with rain drops.

'Xia De Ming, where are you?! Please hear me.'

I don't have money and my body is wet. People passed by with their umbrellas and some of them stared at me with their awkward gazes. Now this city that I walked around has become so different.

'Xia De Ming, I need you to be here. Please show yourself.'

I become tired. I am almost desperate with thoughts about Xia De Ming. I don't have any idea how to find him here. I feel the emptiness becomes my enemies. I am lost.

'Xia De Ming, where are you?'

My body becomes wet and feels so frozen right now but I manage to keep walking in the darkness night. Unconsciously I was standing in front of my apartment. My eyes wider when I see him. Yes, Xia De Ming.

He looks so handsome with his casual looks. He wears dark jeans and white sweater while holding an umbrella. He stared at me. His smile still mesmerizes me. He came closer and made me cry.

With my little fist, I hit his chest. I don't know what I feel right now. Even I hit him but he still embraced me. His embrace feels so warm and so comfortable. He still manages to hold his umbrella.

"How can you leave me like this?!" I protested to him. "Xia De Ming, you owed me." I am crying louder.

"Yes, what can I do for you to appease your anger?"

"Bring me far away from Him. I hate Chen Sheng Lin. Bring me to a place where we can live together, okay?"

Xia De Ming looked into my eyes. His gaze is so warm and his smile enchants me.

"I bring your clothes." He shows me a tote bag.

"So where are we going?" I asked.

"Just change your wet layer first." He said.

"Uhm but I didn't see the toilet."

"Bai He Lian, Now we are in front of your apartment."

What?! Oh yes, I forget. Perhaps that is because I am so excited when I see Xia De Ming.

He gave his umbrella but I pulled him closer so now we are standing under his umbrella. He was shocked but did not protest.

"Don't you get angry at me?" I asked him.

"No."

"So why do you leave me with that bastard?!" I am so angry when I think about Chen Sheng Lin. I shouldn't have met him.

He looked into my eyes. In the darkness, still I can see his sad gaze but manage to give me his smile. I don't want him to smile like this. I want him to be open to me. I want him to tell me about his sadness. His story. He is still so mysterious to me but I can't help falling in love with him. I don't care if people judge me as a mad girl.

"I am sorry, Bai He Lian. I couldn't take care of you." Xia De Ming still stares at me and makes me nervous with his gaze.

"Uhm."

"Change your clothes now. I will wait for you here."

"Promise me, you will be waiting until I come back here?"

"Yes. I will wait for you here, alright?"

"Okay... I will come back in a few minutes. Don't go anywhere."

"Yes, I know." He replied to me while smiling.

This time I don't want to lose him anymore. I don't want Xia De Ming to disappear so I just throw my ancient clothes and change into the new outfit from Xia De Ming. I like everything that he bought for me, a pink sweater with tight jeans even he brought the underwear also.

I don't want to waste my time just to tidy up my messy hair after it is coiled. I don't want him to disappear. So I walked faster than usual just to find him still at the same place and well, I am so happy to see Xia De Ming still waiting for me here.

"Hi." I smiled.

"Bai He Lian." His smiling face still enchants me.

"I just wanna go from here." I said.

"So where do you wanna go?" He asked me.

"Wherever as long as we never meet him again, okay?"

"Alright."

This is a beautiful night. I mean after Xu Feng, I never thought I would fall to Xia De Ming. I don't know why he can hold my heart in his palm. I still don't know where he will bring me but I trust him. Xia De Ming will never hurt me.

He didn't hold my hand yet I am the one who grabbed his arm. I just feel he is so cool like an ice. His face was pale but why did I just realized it?

"Xia De Ming, why are you so charming today?" I asked him, try to find out something suspicious in him.

"Why? Didn't you feel happy since I am no longer as your boss anymore?" He replied

"What?!" I am laughing out loud when I hear his response. "Yes, you are correct. You have fired me."

"Yes. I fired you already and now you are my ex-employee."

Now we laugh together and I can see how beautiful his laugh is. He looks so free and without burden. I love to see him like this and hope time just stopped in these moments. Even when I am with Xu Feng, I have never felt like this way before.

"So where are we going? Have you decided already?" I asked him.

"How if we walk first then go by bus? Because here I am not the boss anymore. No one knows about us here." He explained.

"Then...alright."

We just walked on the street that was full of beautiful rays from lamps and thousands of stars spread like dust on the dark sky. We didn't talk a lot. Xia De Ming let me hold his arm and that's made me super happy. Can I kill the time? I want to enjoy this time, in this moment with this man. Can I ask for extra time just to make this time become a beautiful history in my life? I hope these moments will last forever.

"Xia De Ming-"

"I love you."

I am shocked but at the same time. I am so happy. I cannot hold my smile from my lips. This is beautiful. I am so nervous too but when I see into his eyes I can feel his fears and hopes.

"I am so-"

Soon, in a few seconds I kiss him. Kiss his delicate lips. I can feel the romantic atmosphere not because of the beautiful rays and stars but from his warmness when he responds to my single kiss. Start from a kiss to a lot of kisses on the street without being noticed by other people.