Chapter 45

Before I could say anything, I looked over to Adrian who seemed totally unfazed by it. But I knew something was going on in his head.

But I couldn't tell what.

As I looked at him, everything was flashing. All the memories came flooding back. Just like the night, I tried to kill myself. I felt like I was drowning.

"I'm so sorry NOha. I can't do this." I said shoving the chair out of the way and running out of the house in tears.

I didn't go far. Especially since it was cold and snowing outside. I walked over to a small Cafe that was only about 5 minutes away from my mother's house.

When I finally made it to the cafe I took a seat near the window. The snow always calmed me down. It was so pretty. I love the thing my teachers use to tell me that every single snowflake is different. I even tested out that theory. I would sometimes sit outside for hours when It snowed to look at the snowflakes.

GUess they weren't lying. I sure do miss when everything was simple. No drama. Just pure fun.

"Melissa?" a familiar voice said.

I turned around and saw Adrian.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him.

"I followed you." He said.

"I mean why, you didn't have to come here. " I said.

"Cause I know you, Melissa. I wanted to make sure you were okay." He said.

"What happened back there?" He asked me.

"I don't know Adrian. I guess I was so confused. My first love was standing in the room where my boyfriend is proposing. I just didn't know what to do." I said

"Do you want to marry Noah?" he asked me.

I shrugged.

"Why?" He asked me.

"Cause I still love you, Adrian. I can't marry a man that I don't love." I said.

"He loves you Melissa. And deep down you love him too. But look, I love you so much, Melissa. I would love to get back together with you. But that's up to you." He said.

"No," I said.

"No, what?" Adrian said.

"No, I don't want to get back together. We ruined each other Adrian. I can't do that to myself again. Yes, we both love each other, but we don't belong together. Maybe in another lifetime. But not this one. After we lost our baby, it was hard to look at you, Adrian. I hated you. I blamed you, then I finally got over everything and decided that it was Jennifer's fault we lost our baby. But when you cheated on me." I said but Adrian stopped me.

"I never cheated on you." He said.

"You know what I mean. Now let me continue, now after you so-called cheated, My world went crashing down. My parents couldn't help me. Nobody could. I needed you Adrian, but to me, at that time you had other needs. That I couldn't fulfill cause I was so broken. That's why I took the pills. Now at the hospital, I knew that I loved you. and I was so happy to hear that you never meant for anything to happen and that she drugged you. But I noticed somthing. So much abd things happen when we are together. So I knew that I should end it then so nothing else happens." I said.

Adrian didn't say anything.

"Then I met Noah. I figured he would make me happy. Something I needed right around that time. I'm really sorry Adrian." I said.

"Don't be sorry. That's kinda the same thing with my girlfriend. I'm actually planning to break up with her, probably after Christmas." He said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Cause she thinks I'm cheating." He said.

"Are you?" I asked.

Adrian shook his head.

"Look do you love me?" Adrian asked and I nodded.

"Let me rephrase that. Are you in love with me?" He asked.

"Yes," I said.

"Are you in love with Noah?" He asked me.

"No. I love him, but I am not in love with him."I said.

Adrian smiled then stood up.

He grabbed my hand and walked me outside.

"Melissa. Please. Give us another chance." Adrian pleaded.

"I don't know Adrian," I said.

So many thoughts were going through my head.

"We both need this. I know you are scared, Melissa. But you have to trust me." He said.

I contemplated everything.

Could I truly leave Noah for Adrian?