February 18, 2018

Dear "You",

This is the 3rd letter I'm writing to you, but you probably will never read this. *sigh* You know what I really love about you, your humanity. I love the way you talk about wanting to help the world. I always say the same thing but never been able to achieve it. Now, your walking the walk. More than anything in this world, I just want your warmth. When I close my eyes, your there waiting for me. I hate waking up, your gone when I open my eyes. I watch you from afar, not in the stalker sense, but from where I bump into you sometimes. You never notice me, so we continue to live our own lives.

Do you know when or how I was attracted by you? It was that year in 2016. My ex-boyfriend cheated on me with my friend. Instead of apologizing, they told me I wasn't good enough. I wasn't pretty or smart. You overheard and stepped in. You pushed my ex-boyfriend away and told him that he was a jerk. You turned and grabbed my wrist, we walked away. My eyes flowing with tears. I didn't know what to do. You looked down and wiped away the tears. You leaned in and hugged me. You, who was a complete stranger hugged me. I didn't push you away, instead I felt the warmth all over. I felt....loved. In a way, my ex-boyfriend could never show me. When I stopped crying, you patted my head and smiled. I laughed because you said now that I've stopped. Our eyes looks the same. I never quite understood, until you smiled. Your eyes disappeared. That was the moment my heart never stopped loving you. However, it seemed I was just a "moment" thing. You completely forgot about me that very next day. I went up to you the next day to thank you. You looked at me completely confused. I felt heart broken once again but then I heard from your friend. You had a type of amnesia, where you couldn't remember certain things. I guess I wasn't important enough for your brain to remember me. *sigh* It sounds stupid, but I'm okay. I'm happy to even get a glimpse of you here and there. Thanks for giving that moment of relief.

J.S