"Oh come on!" the internet is as slow as the turtle, I could play with the dinosaur waiting for it to load, if it would!
I plan to go out today but the heat outside might make me collapse. And so I decided to stay in and stuck with this internet connection.
Ugh! I hate this. I turned off the data cause well, you know, in this country you'd get a Wi-Fi internet connection, mostly free from an hour when you're at the mall or if you hack someone's... or you could register your phone number to a data internet providing promo. I'll have to try later.
I picked up the sketch book and decided to sketch my time away waiting. Almost three hours had passed and I'm sleepy.
Wait! I forgot something. Is not today Adrian's birthday? I turned on the data and made a dramatic, uhm, an emotional, uhm, gah! I mean quiet a long message for him. Then for about almost 40 minutes of trying, I sent the message.
Then after 10 minutes, my phone rings...
'Yeah, hi!' I answered.
'Caaaaaaat!!! Thanks for the message, I really appreciate it!' I heard Adrian say, on the other line.
'Nah! That's not much, I can't even buy you a cake or treat you or something like that' I said.
I heard him laugh cause yes, that's silly.
'As if you can treat me.'
'Duh! I can.'
'Really? Then travel here' - laughter - 'then treat me at the café.'
'Wow! Like that would take me a day then back. I don't have the luxury to do so.'
'Oh see! You can't treat me.'
'Uh-huh, okay' - paused - 'Anyway, how's your day going?'
'Uhm, I had a date and ---'
I sighed.
'Okay spare me the details, don't tell.'
'You asked how my day is, you cat!' - laughter - 'But yeah, okay, I won't.'
'So, hey, enjoy your day! Bye!'
'So quick, are you doing something?'
'Not much, actually, but I guess I'll try to read, I'm getting bored and I don't want to go out.'
'Oh, okay, am off, bye!'
Call ended that way and I placed my phone on the bed.
Adrian is a friend from the virtual world, I mean, we met on a writing platform and became friends after chatting for a while outside the platform, well, we have Messenger, Facebook and Instagram, obviously.
I don't know but for quiet sometime, even when I did not meet him personally or talk to him face to face. It feels like I found someone I could bare my soul to. He is somehow similar to me when it comes to understanding how anxiety and depression feels like, how the pressure of our surroundings feels like drowning in the ocean of mystery.
I like him, yes, but romantically, I'm not sure. He'd been going out with some women since the day one we chatted. But sometimes I feel like there's a sting whenever he tells me he's on a date with someone.
The thing is, whenever I am at the point of feeling like I'm falling into an abyss of painful thoughts such as dying away or being a burden to the people around me, I talk to him. I have a lot of anxieties I'm trying to fight off but somehow all of it gives me comfort. He's there for me, on the other side of the line, to listen.
I guess, I should just keep it in for today, it's his birthday, right?
Browsing on Facebook, a notification for people with birthdays came up. I click on Kam's account, he's a batchmate from Senior High. I was about to post on his wall but decided I'll just message him. In reality, he's not even a close friend, just that this day, I felt like sending a personal message. It was a simple birthday greeting, wishing him a blessed day and the traditional 'Happy Birthday' greeting.
I turned off the data and decided to just sleep. Tomorrow is another day! And it's a work day!!! Okay, let's just hope for a good day.