I'mperfect

You tell me I'm so nice, and I don't know why. I'm just being me. I really don't mind. It's not a hassle, or even too inconvenient. It wasn't my second thought, it was the first. It's natural to be that way for me. It's who I am, I'm nice.

I've been told I'm beautiful, with my pretty eyes, and my hair done right, my smile, my laughter, my figure. I do have a good body, and I should feel beautiful.

I'm still working on the way I view myself. That's why I wrote the poem made of Stardust. I want to be able to see myself, love myself, value myself. Put myself first. I struggle with putting myself above others, it isn't natural for me. And it doesn't feel right. We all have things that we struggle with, and things that we excel at. I was such a perfectionist as a kid, and so disappointed by the results, my efforts, and the grand distance. Pretty depressing. It's hard to learn my best is enough, and to be proud of my accomplishments.

I hated it being behind in anything, and when my mom told me I was socially behind, that's when I really tried to put myself out there. I tried to hang out with someone once a month, already extremely low, but better than nothing at all. Wow, that's pretty depressing. I like to think about now, rather than then, because man, wasn't such a good time. And I have a healthier mindset now. I'm still working on it, but it's far better, and that's great.

I'mperfect.