Chapter 39

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Alex cried himself to sleep. When he finally calms down and his breathing starts to even out, Daniel picks him up and carries him towards the bed. With a wet cloth he washes Alex' face, cleaning it from the tears and snot that are everywhere. After stripping them both down to their underwear he hugs him closely, burying them both under the blanket, kissing him lightly on his swollen eyelids. While stroking his lover's back Daniel too falls asleep.

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The next morning Alex wakes up first like he does every time. His eyes feel swollen and his head aches from too much crying. Yesterday really has been awful. But seeing Daniel tightly embracing him a rush a love goes through him. It was really comforting how yesterday Daniel just let him be, he contended himself with just being there and occasionally stroking his back. He didn't ask further, just silently showed his support. It was exactly what Alex needed yesterday.

He barely audible whispers "Thank you, Daniel. I love you." to his sleeping boyfriend. He knows Daniel doesn't hear him but nevertheless he wanted to say it out loud.

Snuggling back against his lover, he notices something hard pressing against his stomach. Alex blushes when he realizes that it is an early morning reaction of his boyfriend. He bites his lower lip and looks up at Daniel's peaceful sleeping face. He looks so beautiful. Alex stretches a bit to reach his lover's face. He gently licks over his lips, pushing his tongue in the small gap between them. He feels Daniel's member strain against his stomach, reacting to his actions.

Shyly he looks up, checking whether Daniel is still asleep. His boyfriend twitches an eyebrow at the unexpected stimulus but his breathing is still even and his eyes are firmly closed.

Alex contemplates a bit about what to do next. Normally, he wouldn't dare make the first step, at most he would openly show that he wanted to do it but would leave the rest of the leading to his lover. Firstly, he deems himself to be too inexperienced and secondly, he just can't - not under those teasing eyes of Daniel.

But right now Daniel's eyes are closed. He is sleeping so he will not object or say anything. Again Alex bites his lips, gathering his courage. He looks up at Daniel again, seeing how beautiful he is in the dim morning light. The decision is made. With a sly smile, Alex slides under the blanket, covering himself with it. Before him in the dark lies the defined chest of his boyfriend. Gently, he starts to peck kisses on him, slowly deepening them. He circles around the buds, drawing nearer with his kisses, leaving a trail of wetness since he licks between his lips, wanting to taste his lover. When he finally reaches the bud, he first flicks it with his tongue. No reaction. He thinks about all the things his boyfriend used to do when they were intimate. A blush creeps up his face as he recalls the memories. But it also gives him one or two suggestions.

He licks the bud again, but this time pushes it with his tongue against his teeth. No reaction. He wanted to wake him gently, but if gentleness does not provoke any reaction he has to try the rest, too. With determination he takes the bud between his lips and sucks on it. Hard. At this he feels his boyfriend's member that still presses against his stomach, twitch. 'So I need to use a little force.', Alex concludes. With this realization he leaves all his inhibitions behind. He sucks on the bud, gently bites it and licks it, like his lover has done to him so many times. The reaction from his lower half is motivating.

Feeling the member hard against his stomach and seeing that the bud is already slightly swollen, Alex starts to trail kisses downwards. He feels his heart speed up at the thought of what he is about to do. When his mouth reaches the waistband of Daniel's underwear, he first lets his tongue trail under the rim, licking the normally cloth-protected skin gently. With his hands he starts to pull the underwear down, struggling as Daniel's member gets caught in the waistband.

While he is in the process of stretching it so he doesn't hurt his lover while undressing, the blanket is lifted.

"What are you doing, love?", Daniel asks hoarsely with a sly smirk on his lips.

Alex feels his courage drain out of him under the gaze of his boyfriend. But his determination is still the same, so he twists his lips in a thin line and pulls the blanket back over his head, covering his actions.

"Don't look!" He commands, his voice shaking slightly with his shyness.

But thankfully, while he hears Daniel chuckling "Okay, okay.", he also feels him lying back down in the pillow.

The blanket is now covering him completely; he is enveloped by the darkness and his lover's scent and warmth. With his determination still strong, Alex pulls at the underwear again. He notices his lover's body tensing as he helps him by lifting his hips up.

Finally rid of the underwear Alex can't see what he exposed. The darkness envelopes him, covered by the blanket all around him. He starts searching his lover's body with his mouth. He begins on his stomach, his hands roaming the sides of Daniel's body, sliding down until they rest on his hips. He guides his mouth in the same direction, searching for the quivering member that already stands tall in the darkness. He feels his cheek brush against it.

He swallows nervously one last time, licks his dry lips so they become wet. Then his mouth finds the shaft. He trails his lips along it's length, only touching it. He feels in control as he feels the responding quivering. It is an exhilarating feeling, having the normally leading party under him, reacting to his every touch.

His mouth reaches the tip. Like his lover does for him, he gently licks it, pushing his tongue in the urethrae. Then he finally closes his mouth around the shaft. The member in its hardened length doesn't fit fully in his mouth, a third still missing. But before he can go deeper, he already hears the moan, muffled by the blanket.

'I couldn't really hear it.', he thinks sadly. He starts moving his head up and down, trying to lick the shaft in the meantime. It is a confusing motion and he needs to concentrate. He is sure his lover does it better. He starts feeling defeated, when he again hears a moan. It is maddening, hearing it muffled, not seeing the face his boyfriend makes when he feels good.

Alex swallows hard with his mouth still around his lover's shaft. His own heartbeat is nearly deafening him when he comes to a decision.

'I want to see it. I want to hear it.' He locks his gaze where he expects his lover's face and throws the blanket away.

The sight he is met with is stunning. Daniel's eyes are already a little hazy with desire, searching frantically where his lover works on him. Alex can see the frustration of him not being able to see what is happening and equally how he wants to lie back down just to drown in the feeling of his lover's mouth on him.

Now their gazes meet. Daniel's eyes widen in surprise, lust and a little awe. A hand reaches down, gently caressing Alex' cheek. Alex never really noticed but now that he remembers Daniel always made sure to look into his eyes when something pleasurable happened. He can clearly see why now. Still looking Daniel straight in the eyes he starts moving his head up and down, trying hard to fit in as much as he can. He furrows his eyebrows as the length starts hitting against his throat, feeling uncomfortable. But he still pushes deeper. Why? Because Daniel under him strains to hold his gaze but fails miserably, his eyes turning up in pleasure, his head arching back and his lips slightly parted in a deep felt moan.

Alex goes deeper and deeper, not being able to shift his gaze from this beautifully erotic sight.

He feels the hand on his cheek sliding behind the back of his head, when it suddenly pushes his head deeper. Alex feels scared, his control is slipping.

"Alex.", Daniel moans desperately.

With this Alex regains his courage. If his control is slipping, Daniel long ago lost his. He still can turn it around, regain the lead. But he can also decide freely to comply with his lover's wish. And so he does. He takes him in deep, his hands grabbing his bottom, forcing him in even deeper. Daniel moans under him desperately until he finally screams "Alex, I am coming."

Hot liquid shoots in Alex' mouth, filling it up. Without thinking about it he swallows it, surprised by the bitter taste. Under him he feels Daniel relax, still panting heavily.

"Come here, love." He feels Daniel pulling him up on his sweaty chest. "That was one nice wake up call." Daniel teases him.

But Alex just feels proud and confident. It was the first time he took the lead for the whole part and it was an overwhelming feeling. Basking in the knowledge that he took a big step for himself, he snuggles on his boyfriend's chest, enjoying the embrace and just simply answers "Yes." and buries his happy smile in his lover's body.