Chapter 6 : Love
That day was probably the best day of my life.
She talked to me.
We gave each other hi5's and had so much fun in that new group.
It was just too real for me to believe that it's ACTUALLY happening.
God she looked beautiful.
T'was a bummer when it was time to get back to our original groups again, I wished she'd be in the same group as mine. But even if it was just for that one moment, I was happy.
Ever since the day I first layed my eyes on her, and everytime her name made my heartbeat go crazy, I knew that she was the one. Probably my first, and hopefully my last.
Life seemed so bright and beautiful from the day she entered mine.
I smiled every single time her thought went through my head.
My heart didn't take a second to have just a crush towards her....
It didn't take me long to realize then.
I was in love.
This feeling made me believe that it was real.
Seeing and keeping her happy was suddenly all that I wanted.
Losing her would be the last thing on my mind.
Sticking to her was now made my priority.
The last few days of Summer camp were heaven-like.
Seeing her every day, but this time, smiling at me, was just so unreal.
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS became hobby.
Excitement decided to stick to my adrenaline levels. I was just so happy.
It was really depressing when those 8 amazing days of joy, came to an end. I still remember how sad I was.
I missed her so much, that I couldn't resist...
.....and decided to write a song.
My first ever original song.
To her.
May sound a bit funny or cute to you guys,
But I still remember how many HOURS I'd spend just thinking about what I could put into that song.
Just me and my guitar with a pen and a note.
It took me a week to finish the song....
..... And I named it after her.
Our chats had definitely gotten better, I guess I wasn't THAT boring afterall.
*Dabs*
Sometimes we'd even send voice notes to each other, talking for hours.
She spoke about Korean Drama, which she absolutely loved,
and made me watch em too.
Honestly they weren't that bad, I quite enjoyed them and would talk about them to her for hours.
I made her interests mine, and I guess that's how I got to text her better and more often.
Back in the day, since my board exams were nearing up, my parents had decided to cut the internet connection, so I could focus more on my studies.
BUT that wouldn't stop me from talking to her. So I'd spend a lot of money on mobile data, and I believed that it was worth it.
(Aug 17th, 2015)
I told her this day, about the song I wrote for the girl I was in love with,
but I dared not to say the name.
She kept asking me who, but I couldn't say that infact it was her.
I just kept giving hints, all pointing out to the personality traits of Rose's.
I'm pretty sure she understood, that I had feelings for her, or atleast got the idea, although I never actually told her directly.
But she kept it casual and texted as if she never knew.
She also asked me to send the song, so she could give her opinion about it.
I OBVIOUSLY said no since the song LITERALLY had HER NAME in it.
(Although I so badly wanted to)
BUT THEN, from outta nowhere she says,
"Sing my name and send"
I was numb.
"Whoa" I said.
"Yes, sing Rose and send, that way I won't know who the girl is" she said.
That was definitely smart of her.
I hestitated so much but at the same time I WAS SO EXCITED.
Should I send it?!?!
What if she didn't like it?
What if it makes her cringe??
OH MY GOSH HELP.
I was going nuts.
And she kept typing "SEND".
OH BOY WHAT DO I DO?
I told her I was nervous.
She asked me to send it, and then she'll honestly give her personal opinion.
I was a nervous wreck.
My hands were just SHAKING.
Why the heck am I so scared??
To end this fear,
I just sent it to her.
I WAS SHAKING EVEN MORE.
And after waiting for almost 15 minutes, she finally texts back.
Seeing the notification window gives me goosebumps
A billion thoughts started to crowd my mind.
WHAT SHOULD I DO??
"Okay okay....calm down. Breathe. Stay cool"
I WAS SO NOT COOL.
FINALLY,
I opened the chat head,
and.....