Chapter 27 : True Love
2k17 came to an end, Beautifully.
Ofcourse there were ups and downs.
But I was happy, with everything I had right now.
My 12th grade was just me going for tutions, performances, and tournaments as well, simply enjoying myself and bringing the best out in me. I stopped going for Life teen that year.
I understood that me hating anyone, won't help.
What was I doing?
Was me hating Rose even right?
I didn't want to, I really did not want any sort of hate towards anyone.I realized I could never hate Rose. It kept bothering me that maybe I should've just gone and asked her, about what's up. Was she okay? But what would she think if I did? Would she be mad?
But one day, for family fest 2k18, she was there.
She did see me, but I didn't know if I wanted to talk to her. And I think neither did she.
I thought
"Nevermind, it's no use now anyway"
I grabbed a water bottle, and headed towards my stall, to see how things were going.
Unfortunately I trip over a set of audio wires and spill ALL the water on a kid's phone.
Now everyone were silent.
I looked at the kid as his face grew redder, and redder. He goes back, grabs a fishing rod from another game stall, and starts running towards me. LOOK I HAD NO OPTION BUT TO RUN.
And as I exit the stall, time slows down yet again. I promise this is the last time guys.
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY THIS HAPPENS,
but she's there, Rose, right in front of me, facing the other side talking to her friend, and I'M RUNNING, ABOUT TO CRASH INTO HER.
Now instinctively, I thought OKAY, let's dodge like a pro. Yeah I has this whole math calculation shit in my vision , analyzing my escape route(no I'm kidding).
FUNNY, in that whole slow motion scenario, she decides to move in the EXACT same side I was trying to dodge her, she didn't know I was there.
I CLOSED MY EYES.
*bump*
My shoulder, hits her chin, while I was dodging. I looked back, she held her face.
I looked at her.
"I'M SO SORRY" I said.
She looks at me.
And....she smiles.
And I smile.
And then I say, "Umm Hi"
She says "Hi", still smiling the smile, I hadn't seen for a whole year.
This was it. I could finally be free from my miserable past, and move on.
Everything was fine between us, that smile told me everything.
BACK TO REALITY, THIS LITTLE GUY IS STILL CHASING ME.
I ran😂
Thinking, wow. It's over :3
Towards the end of 2k18, I joined the life teen choir where I met lovely new people.
People with problems, but also people who cared so much for one another. People who showed me the meaning of humanity.
People just like me.
I've made amazing friends.
I was slowly beginning to realize that THIS was what love really was. It was the love your parents had for you, and yours, for them.
It was the care and concern you'd show to your friends and family that showed how much you loved them.
It was through this love, that I realized that we could make life SO BEAUTIFUL and better for each other.
Where does this whole relationship stuff fit in then?
Its after, you learn how to love yourself.
It's after you truly accept the way you are, and it's shown in how you treat the people around you, no matter who they are.
Making yourself a better person is the only thing that will define you.
And someday, you'll find the person. Someone who'll understand what love really is.
And honestly I don't know when that's gonna be. Right now, I'm focusing on being me, and spreading positivity and love, everywhere I can. I want to care. For everyone that mean something to me.
Sometimes I wonder, that...
Parents were right
We're in a generation where the majority do not know how to love anymore.
I look around me and I see people breaking up, dumping and just hurting, themselves and the other. I hope that someday they'll understand.
I want to save those beautiful people that I meet in life saying,
"Hey, you're doing good."
"You got this."
"I believe in you."
This diary has mainly helped me learn more about myself as a person. And I know who I am, and what I should do.
Yes, this was a diary, where a boy fell in love.
I did. I fell in love with everything.
Everything about this life of mine, and the people in it❤️
SO YEAH.
Some things maybe y'all can take back from this piece of my life :
You can't force someone into loving you, neither can you force yourself into loving someone else.
The feeling should be mutual both ways.
Some people come into your life as blessings,
while some as lessons for us to learn from.
Understand your worth, enough to know that you deserve better.
Don't let the world change the good in you.
Treat others with kindness, for you'll never really know what they're going through.
If you see any opportunity, grab that. Make use of it and really just go for it.
Most importantly, Love yourself.
I'm still learning, it's hard but I'll eventually get there. The end goal is to make yourself a better person.
Don't forget you're surrounded by people who always care for you.
And yes finally, be chill😂🤷🏻♂️