So selfish

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When she is around people like that, it makes Lyn remember how she never truly tried or made the effort. No, whenever she made the effort to do something. She would surrender and give up halfway because it was too painful for her. Whenever she saw how enthusiastic people were, Lyn felt envious. How nice is it to have something they could work hard on? Something they could try and do their best in. She didn't have anything like that. For the longest time Lyn wanted to change things as Lyn. But even that goal of hers seemed so small. If she truly wanted to make a change, she could have done so a long time ago. 

Lyn watched the cigarette in her hands until the last piece crumbled onto the ground.

"Are you going to pick him up?"

She nodded, "Mm, I think I should. Enough is enough."

"Shouldn't you get treated first?"

Lyn laughed lightly. "No need I will be fine. But please clear up properly here." With those words said she walked off.