Yesterday, I was discouraged after learning something or perhaps I was mistaken, but clearly a problem. For what it was, let it remain in silence.
I thought of giving up, even stop writing this diary. I sulked and closed my laptop. This was clearly not good. After all the days, hours and efforts I've done, I can't imagine I'll give up because of some negativity of the system. For what system it was, let's put it at the corner of my mind.
However, I'm not a person who easily gives up. Base on experience, I went to sleep. I won't let such things discourage me. I've been through a lot in life, worst than this. I'm in charge of my life and to where I'm heading, not the circumstances.
After a short nap, I reread everything I've written for this story and also went back to the books that inspired me. All of my notes were pulled out from the documents' library and reviewed each of them. From there, my mind began whirling back in place. Slowly, I've found my direction, of what I truly desire for my story. My blood was boiling and my head was working in rapids.
Hence, I'll continue to write, including this diary. I will not give up, rather, I will press on.
I studied my plot, made some changes, come up with a synopsis, and alter some parts of the story. I decided to go back to my original plan, dual time jump. This time, I'll try to bring the storyteller in me come to life. I'll be faster now after putting all of my notes together. I'm a bit excited. Whew! I don't know what else to say. The discouragement yesterday was blown with the wind.
I guess I needed to hear that news to get my head straight. My work was turtle speed, making me frustrated even how much I tried to find inspiration.
I hope, by believing in myself, everything will not be in vain. If ever the result will not be good, I won't regret it because it's my decision, not due to other people's prodding and negativity.
I won't write more. I'll just focus my mind on what I'm going to do today. I pray that I'll be able to get a good editor I can afford and publish my book on Amazon. Please help me, God. 🙏