DON'T KNOW why

Yesterday's tiredness overpowered me, I'm not even able to move my body. But where am I? "Honey are you awake?oh thank goodness." I knew this voice. "Mom, I missed you soo much. where were you?" She replied very fast,"Carol Amartya, don't you think that I should be the one asking this question from you. You went fir sleepover to your friend and got missing for two days and now you are awake. I need an explanation now. Holy crap, I remembered everything I was been kidnapped and Ray where he is, is he allright? If I told mom about this me and him both would be in problem. "Actually I don't remember anything clearly, and also I am having headache." I replied with sad face."Ih sorry honey I leave and you rest for now". She replied and left me alone. So I actually was back.But something is missing, am I craving for him or his touch or his face or his wardrobe or his warmth. I was awake that time when he was so close to kiss him, if I had allowed it then I might have lost my virginity. So I just slept beside him, after that I blacked out. Now I have to see him, I don't know why..