Date Both?

"Ash…" 

Wuxing muttered, staring at her teared up face, not really knowing what to tell her. A part of him knew about her feelings but back then the situation looked much different, making it impossible for the two to be together. 

Being a mercenary was a dangerous job. He could die at any time after failing his mission and having a lover would only distract him, changing his decision making. 

He knew himself well. 

If he had a girlfriend waiting for him back at home, he would always choose the option with the least risk. In his job, taking a risk was sometimes necessary which was the reason why he didn't push for a relationship even though they were obviously more than friends.