Chapter 8: Starry Night

(Y/N)'s POV

he turns my face around to him and cups my cheek

"you're a limited edition." he smiles at me and my heart beats fast again like the shatter never existed

"many men are chasing you and only one person can have you" he said leaning closer

I back away and close my eyes preventing him to touch his lips against mine

"you're cute" he said and backs away

"oh- you're blushing!" he laughs loudly and I throw a tiny pebble at him

"you can't just do that to a girl!" I said covering my face, he takes my hands away and looks at my red face

"it's true (Y/N), anyone would die just to have you" he said and I roll my eyes

"in my dreams"

he sits back and enjoys the night sky, I lean back again and stare at the night sky as well, he sighs and interwines my free hand with his, I swear I can see him getting upset over something in the corner of my eye

"is something bothering you?" I ask and he nods

"yeah..., being the group's sunshine is tiring right?, all you can do is make them happy and smile while here you are, looking at the gloomy night sky" He said and grips my hand tighter

"I feel your pain, it's similar to when I was in my Junior high days, my classmates would always make fun of me and even trip me, I became clumsy and would always stutter making myself a loser, they always laugh at my clumsiness and I would just laugh it off as well, but deep inside... I didn't like it, one day, they were backstabbing me saying that I'm not a very fun person even if I organise a big and fun party, they said that it's entertaining to see me hurt myself for being clumsy, I didn't have a choice but to hurt myself and trip myself for their sake even if it was accidental or intentional, I didn't want to be alone, months passed by, I became as their entertainer, since I have that tittle I have no choice but to do it, 4 years was a pain in the butt, but I manage to get my guts together and have revenge on them when I was in my first year of college" I said and he laughs it off

"that's sad to hear..., but I'm glad that those demons got what they deserve" Hoseok said as he looks at me, I turn my face to him, I scoot closer to him and put my head on his shoulder and he puts his head on mine

"even if you're like that Hoseok, it's okay to not be okay even if you have the tittle as their sunshine, even the people who make others laugh and smile can also have pain inside, don't think yourself as a clown, you can't make them smile everyday 24/7, if you want to be sad then be sad, if you want to be happy then be happy" I said

"You're strong (Y/N), I admire you, it's like you have this strong exuberance even if your life is a living hell" he smiles

"of course, I'm not making myself depressed 24/7, you only live once so it would be better to be happy no matter if it turned out like this" I smile, he releases my hand and looks at me

" should I court you to your room?, you need to sleep" he asks

"no thanks, I like to sleep here for now" I said and he nods, he stands up and went inside

I was waiting for him to come back, Hoseok came back with two pillows and two blankets

"it's been a while since I've done like this" Hoseok said and places the their blanket on the ground

"oh really?" he nods

"before my sister died by your father's men, I always used to have a sleepover with her at the graden, we used to build a tent and play in there, sometimes with Jimin and Yoongi, but Yoongi and Jimin moved out after the attack came, I was just eight years old back then, seeing my sister getting shot by a man turned me into something else" he said and I nod

"gosh... dad is such a bastard" I said and he laughs while placing the pillow on the blanket

"I know right?" he said and lays down, I lie down as well and felt a little bliss when my head met the fluffy pillow

we were just laying back down in silence as we watch the starry night sky

"and you called the night sky gloomy?" I ask suddenly and he turns his head facing me

"what do you mean?"

"I mean, you said that you're happy but is actually sad like the night sky right?, it's like you're a sunny sky when you're happy and a night sky when you're sad, let's think here for a bit, just because the skies have opposite sides and the meaning should be opposite as well dosen't really mean that it should be, it also rains in the daytime, a sunny sky can also become cloudy, if I point it out like they're a person then even a happy person can also be a sad person too, and if we look at the night sky, sure it's gloomy, but not all night skies are gloomy, a night sky can also be a starry night sky which means a sad person can also be a happy person as well, you get my point?" I said Hoseok smiles with a nod

"I get it"

"so if you don't want to show your gloom to them then I suggest you to stop and show yourself, if you're sad, you're sad, if you're happy, you're happy, just don't be fake around them and show them how you really feel" I said and he nods

"we don't need to give or feel the exuberance everyday." I shrug

he turns me around to face him and wraps his arms around me

"you're so amazing (Y/N), I really admire you" he said and presses his forehead against mine

"we don't deserve you after all the things we've done to you-"

"past is past Hoseok, let's just stay like this way for now" I said cupping his cheek

he pulls me closer to him and kisses my forehead for the second time

"thank you for making me feel like this way once again (Y/N)..." he mutters

"I'm glad I can help."

"Good night, (Y/N)" he smiles and I did as well

"goodnight night my sunshine" I said and cover the both of us with the other blanket

he closes his eyes as he start to fell asleep and I did as well.