Profanity and harsh words. Please read at your own risk
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Well hello there f*cked up world. I feel so f*cked up right now. I wanna f*ckin' stick a knife in my chest, maybe that'll be a lot easier. The world is so putrid I wonder how God can take it. I wonder how can He love greedy and f*cked up people who only hurt each other, people who are so engrossed in their own which tends to hurt other people, thus creating more pain and suffering. I feel so miserable, I don't even know what to do with my life right now.
Now I think I wanna take back all that I've just written on the first thought. Maybe being a senseless robot would be way better than being a human with all these messy emotions.
I wish I could just disappear or become one with thin air, you know like in cartoons, *poof* and I'm gone.
All those love stories, beautiful and perfect. beaming with the colors of happiness, those are bullcrap. Love like those on movies and novels will never be real. I'm just fooling myself into believing I could have a love like that.
Yes. this is what happens when you raise your standards about love like those of beautifully perfect romance novels. Those that have a perfect girl and a perfect guy, finding each other and having those memorable process of falling in love. Yes. Love like the ones in movies and novels are very idealistic that believing in such would get you to where I am.
Yes, it hurts, but I know I am also at fault. At fault for having too many standards. Beautiful, Romantic stories would always be JUST stories... unless you believe that what you have is already beautiful.