They had another misunderstanding. She came to my doorsteps crying and miserable. Apparently, she had another huge fight with her lover. "I'm trying so hard, so damn hard just so he can approve of me.. so we won't argue at anything he doesn't like," she told me while covering her face with both hands. "I told you to talk to him, it's just a misunderstanding" I explained while patting her back. ""Oh if only you know how you're breaking me with your tears... crying for someone who can't even love you for who or what you are...."" "I-I just don't know anymore.. I'm tired of being someone who I'm not... for making myself into someone just so we could avoid any fights.. I'm tired but I would rather be tired than not be with him.." She protested as she looks me in the eyes. "That's why I told you to make him understand. A relationship like this isn't a relationship at all, both of you have to meet half way and learn to accept each other. But you're the only one trying." I tell her as I look on the other side, avoiding her eyes, those pretty eyes which shine of tears ""You can just stop, don't be afraid of losing someone who isn't afraid of losing you.."" Soft whimpers are what fills the heavy atmosphere, "I'm trying.. I will still try.. I know he'll come through and understand.. I know, coz he loves me.." She said while wiping her tears with the back of her hand. ""No just stop trying, God damn stop it. Stop trying to be a circle when all you are is a square.. stop hurting yourself, cutting the corners smooth just to fit in the circle that he wants to. Why can't it just be me? F*ck him. Having my whole 'world' at the palm of his hands, yet never closing those hands of his.. I'm begging you just stop. Don't go to him....stay."" "That's good then, I know you can make him understand. I believe in the effort you are putting. Haha, now you look funny with that puffy red eyes and tender nose." I said while I turn my back at her, pretending to get a drink at my fridge. "Thank you.. Ryuuji, for always being there for me, you must be very tired of listening to me whine all the time." She said embarrassed of her swollen eyes and smiling her silly smile at me. ""Yes, I. am. tired. Tired of always seeing you like this, crying for someone so undeserving. I can be that someone who'll always be by your side in times as such, I can just tell you kind words like the ones I've said, and caution you a little as you cry. Then you'll come to be by my side... but... I know you'd rather cry than choose me right? But, just now, Please I'm begging you... don't show your tears to anyone but me..."" "Go fix yourself and talk to him again. Okay?" at this point I can no longer face her. "Nope! I don't care about how I look right now! You are right, I should speak to him once more. Thank you Ryuuji, I'll go back to him maybe he's still at the park. I'll treat you some other time Okay?" She said while typing a message on her phone, a message which may be for him. Asking if he really is still at the park. "Okay. take ca--" *thud* I hear the door closes.. "If only you knew, if only I have told you....." was the only thought that came to my mind.