MY HANDS ARE TIED

"How do we do this again?" I questioned Baekhyun a third time as I couldn't tackle down the man in front of me. I was immediately taken in by them, as though adopted, I was kept in conditions better than expected. I couldn't see or meet Naomi but I talked to her once a week knowing she's fine.

Presently, I'm in the process of being trained to become what, an assassin? I'm becoming what I ran away from years ago, my mom sacrificed her own life so that I could live one that I wish to, and here I am....

I miss Mom..

Baekhyun sighed. "Just what did boss see in you!" it was kind of fun watching him piquing at my dumbness which I was doing on purpose.

"First of all you Lean back away from the attack. Preventing yourself from getting hurt is the major priority" he said while looking at me and at the same time demonstrating

"Second you Grab the person by the arm or shirt as they are punching or attacking."

I watched him with scrutiny and delight, my eyes sparkling with joy watching him demonstrate it so perfectly.

"Third and last you Pull the attacker towards you and down and Use your leg to trip them to the ground as you pull them." I watch him finish the demonstration.

"got it now? air-head" he mocked at me as though I'm actually dense.

I being offended at his boasting of himself and looking down at me, I get up and move under my opponent's arm as he approaches and I quickly grab him around the waist from behind. Keeping one arm straight out in front of him as I move behind him; wrap my other arm around his waist from behind. Once I have a hold on him, I flip him onto the mat by falling back and swinging him with you.

I stand up with a cup-winning smile.

"Air-head you said?" I move towards him while speaking "This air-head is Better than you I guess" I flick a finger on his forehead and run across the room as he runs behind me to tackle be for flicking his head.

"Come here you little piece of turd!" I giggle as I sprint across the room.

"wbidhe" I slip and fall on the mat.

"ouch!" I yell in pain as I accidentally sprained my ankle as I fell.

"ARE YOU OKAY?" the concern in his eyes seemed genuine but it didn't feel right , this isn't right. I shouldn't be having fun. He extended his hand to help me up but I simply reject it.

"I'm fine" I got up and walked as though I wasn't running around like a doofus just a minute back.

"I'm sorry" those words weren't the ones I was anticipating "I shouldn't have dragged you into this." he said and left the room. Was I being rude?

"What's that supposed to be about?" I shouldn't think much about it. I need to get over with this as soon as possible.

A few months later my training was over. That was quick. The months were brisk to pass by. Maybe because it was a hasty attempt to defuse the situation.

I was sent on countless missions mostly those accompanied by Baekhyun, Kai and Chanyeol.

I was starting to get used to it. Even though deep down I knew I shouldn't .

Tomorrow is the day when the most crestfallen and intricate, strenuous mission is to begin.

"Mission: Disband BTS" I mumbled.

"It's not that ardous. You make it sound burdensome" Kai told me, almost in an effort to relieve my stress.

"It might not be to you but it is to me. BTS is more than a band to me. It's almost like a family to me and not just to me but to millions of people out there. They've given a reason to live for to countless people. They deserve the best and yet here I am formulating to break them up." I sighed effortlessly

"It'll be fine, don't fret over it" Baekhyun said off-tone.

"Wasn't talking to you. Was I?" I eye rolled as I said.

"Don't make it hard for me to be good to you" he pushed me back to the wall.

"I'm trying to be nice for God's sake! you can at leas-"

"Stop the pretence already Baekhyun. it's not like you care!" I scoffed at the man who got me into this to start with.

"Kim" he mumbled subtly "Kim Taehyung....is my best friend. He has been since childhood. He doesn't know about what I do. But I love him. He's almost like a younger brother to me. He reminds me of Mingyu. He-" his voice was breaking down. I had never seen this side of him. Somehow I felt bad, a little guilty about being rude to him. I didn't realize how heartless I'm starting to become, I'm naturally becoming what that idiotic leader of their wants me to be. But I won't give in this easily, I'll retain to being my true self.

I embraced him, pulled him into a soft,gentle hug. In an effort to Comfort him.

It just felt right at the moment. He didn't push me away but instead hugged me back.

I could feel water droplets on my back, not those from rain but from sorrow, tears escaped from his eyes, making their way to drench my shirt, but it didn't matter.

"I didn't want all this to happen in the first place. But I am hell bound hikari."

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