I fell down on my knees and continued sobbing until I felt a hand trying to bring me up.
I looked up to see Kenma, a worried Kenma.
"Hikari" he had a woeful look on his face.
I knew I had ruined the night for everyone, turning a joyous celebration into a horrendous nightmare.
I shook my head, regretful of what I'd done and continued saying "I'm sorry" and "it's all my fault"
"It's really not" Kenma held my hand as he sat beside me on the bed.
"It's just that, Taehyung has never been this serious with anyone, I have never seen him this happy ever. You mean a lot to him hikari and he was grief-stricken at the fact that you couldn't even trust him this much." He rubbed my back, trying to console me and make me feel better, but right now I was literally inconsolable.
I didn't trust him.
That's right, he must've felt so despairing.
"It's okay now! Be quite" Kenma tried to hush me.
"You know Taehyung is just as much sensitive as you are. He would be probably kicking things in his room right now" I heard a bang from across the hall and giggled knowing it must be him.
"So if you're feeling fine enough, you better go ensure he's fine too." Kenma gave me his bunny smile and I nodded. I loved how Kenma's endeavoring to save our relation.
I wiped off my tears and hugged Kenma, thanking him for being there for me.
Soon I hurried towards his room, secretly sneaking in.
"Tae-Tae" I searched for him in the dark room, I went inside and jumped at the sound of the door closing behind me.
"Taehyung?" I blindly moved my hands in the air, unable to see in the dark.
I came in contact with some human like form and instantly hugged him.
"I'm sorry, please forgive me!!!"
I clutched at his shirt, pulling him closer into the radiant light of the moon.
He was so prepossessing, his facial features gleaming in the moonlight.
I noticed a shiny liquid dripping down his face, I immediately rushed my hand to wipe it off knowing it was a tear.
"I'm sorry I didn't trust you enough. I was really just…" I looked down still clutching at his clothing, I can't let him know of my past, it's ancient history.
"I felt really inferior, knowing she's far much better than me, making it even more believable that you must've dated her and you could even go back-" he kissed me, preventing me from speaking further.
"You're the best I could ever wish for" he said in between the kiss, he then deepened the kiss and continued to until we broke off, I stared into his emotion filled, fathomless deep black eyes.
"You're my first in all spheres and I intent you to be my last" he kissed me on the forehead and I melted away at that.
Falling into his arms, letting him cuddle me.
It's this soothing comfort that I forage for. This warmth that I'm deprived of. This love that I've been shut away from for all eternity, until now. Now, it seems possible, to fall in love, to rely on someone, to be with someone, to be happy, to feel safe, for once.
I'm not just falling in love with you, I'm falling into you. You're an ocean, and I'm falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are.
Anywhere with you, is everywhere I want to be. Taehyung, you are my every reason, every hope and every dream I've ever had.