Realization in illusions

273 AD

It was winter, there was a snowstorm, making the small thatch and wooden house less visible.

Our little boy, Sky had turned 4, although he had a weak body and only barely manage to walk just now, it made me and my wife worried that something might be wrong, I just hope my son will live a peaceful life void from all the things that I experienced when I was his age.

My wife Elene had also grown weak and everytime she eats, she only ate meat.

day by day her appetite grew weirder and weirder although she ate a lot, yet

she only just became much more skinnier, her beautiful brown iris became shallow, under her eyes were eyebags, she always stares at me and Sky whenever we're around not the type that's of a "mother" or a "wife" but something like that of a "predator",she only dozes when it's time to sleep in the night and always find myself awake late in night only to see her looking at...me.

I don't know what to do anymore!!!, whenever I asked her what's wrong she only said " I just need some sleep", when I consulted the doctor about the problem, he only stated that she's malnutritious and has a lack of sleep, and said that's the reason why she's unergetic, unresponsive and always staring into the "distance"

And then one day,

I was dreaming of something, this surreal and incomprehensive dream.

But "it" just felt....real.

These "thing" just kept on coming and clawing I saw my wife's face in these "thing", I don't it's just oh please God please don't give me this!!! this "trial" or some shit like that!!, the face of the woman that I loved, no, this is not her, there's no way!!!! there's no way!!. These "thing" had no eyes, "it" moved, but they don't give the feeling of being alive, they scream, yet it's incomprehensive, the familiar feeling that they gave...me...the things I've seen before.. back when I was in the army....a ...corpse...YEEESS!!!..this must be it yet why does it move?!?! why does it SCREAM!!, a corpse.. DOESN'T..MOVE RIGHT!!!?!?..and...why...is..my wife there, she's alive RIGHT!?!!, yet why is she one of these "thing" out of all people?!?!, this must be a dream, yet why can't I wake up no matter what I do, my eyes was always opened, every motion of "her's" is not her's, there's no way my beautiful wife is this "thing" illusion this is an illusion, this must be a work of the devil, suddenly my vision became dark. The cry of Sky made me gained "control" of my conciousness and only to realized to myself...

"I killed my....wife"

These bloodied hands, the strong stench lingering in the air that smelled like iron, the "thing" that was in my arms, despite it's head crushed and mangled body, was still twitching. I felt my heart being crushed slowly and confused of why is it like this, By the time I was comprehending why is my heart like this, drops of water fell down on the "thing"

(No it's not a "thing" you dumbass it's Elene....your one and only wife, the woman you swore to yourself, that you would devote everything you had for her, that you will use you're hands in order to protect her from all harm, and you're body to shield her from all sickness) hehehehehe~

"the one in the hundred of millions of women in the world, she was the girl you chose in your life and until to you're death, yet despite all that bullshit, you betrayed her and even killed her with literally nothing, but you're very own..... hands, HAHAHAHAHAHHA!!"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!"

Hearing me suddenly screaming to myself, made the crying and weak Sky faint. That time my heart felt empty.

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247 AD-273 AD

In memory of:

Elene Frois Brenette

Two days after that we held Elene's funeral, I fabricated the story, I had no choice, there was no way they would believe that Elene turned into a monster.

I told them that she was attacked by wolves and placed Sky in the other room as she lured the wolves, or else they might go to the window to where the room Sky is at.

Then I was in a day off from work, and had to go to the woods to hunt hares for tonight's supper and that's when I heard screams and ran as fast as I can to my home, and it was then when I came back, my wife's mangled body and the wolves trying to bite and claw her flesh. Then to my rage killed the wolves.

That was the story I told.

Just saying all that lie, that weighed me with deep remorse to myself.

And in order to make proof of the incidence, I had no choice but to hunt down three wolves that night when she died.

And as for Sky, the incident caused him to be traumatized about the incident, further weakening his body, that he was no longer able to walk nor talk.

What happened to Elene and the decision to kill her, and the guilt that I had for all the things that I promised, as well as the scene of seeing my son having a hard time just to open his eyes, Him eating and swallowing the food down like, it was a torture.

Remembering and seeing such things made me slowly break and almost drove me to suicide but had to endure for the of sake of my son, deep into my heart I hoped and prayed for him to overcome such suffering.

Until 2 years later....

Sky Brenette died...

275 AD...

And also the man named Lean Brenette died

within me.