Ayazu

Jake Brown is a starting freshman in college who has absolutely no experience falling in love, let alone be in a romantic relationship. All he ever did was study. One day, he was involved in a serious accident which caused him to have a concussion and since then had memory gaps and rifts. Fast forward on the first day of college he comes across Rose Sanchez. Fate plays its part and entangles the two into a swirl of emotions as they ‘get to know each other’. Will they get past the serendipity test? Or will they get overcome by the serendipity curse? Will they commemorate how they are related? Or will the secrecy of their past be buried and retained in the past?

Lost in Serendipity

For the past few months, I've been having almost the exact same dream every time I fall asleep. 


It's a dream about my mom, myself, and a certain girl. She had a slim figure and it seemed like we used to be so close. At this point, I'm unsure of whether these are memories flooding back to my brain or if they're JUST dreams. 


It feels weird though. Dreaming about a person you do not remember. I couldn't really remember her face whenever I woke up though. I don't really know what's up with that.


As I head over towards the rehabilitation room, I still kept trying to remember the face of that girl whom I saw in my dreams. But similar to a small mathematical miscalculation, "it's so near yet so far". I feel like I'm this close to remembering, but everytime I feel that way, it seems to just escape my grasp and I can't seem to remember. What's up with that? 


One thing does feel odd though. There are times when I hear my mom talking on the phone with someone. Probably someone she doesn't want me to know, since everytime I come closer to listen, she leaves the room. When I ask her about it, she just brushes it off and goes on to change the subject. 


Since Jake's operation, I couldn't really approach him anymore out of my respect for his mom's request. I don't know why I just can't stop thinking about him. It could be my guilt after disappearing just like that and him looking for me that night, which led to the tragic accident, or perhaps…


…noooo I don't know. I don't think so, right? Right?? Yeah right, yeah that's right, mmhmm. A~nyway, so I haven't really been openly checking in on him. I've been checking on him lowkey and a bit more under the radar.


I gotta remember he does not know me. He doesn't remember my name, who I am or what I look like. I guess it sort of is a blessing since now I can watch him from afar without him noticing.


You might think that I'm weird, perverted, crazy, or even a creep. But to me, it's the only way I know. I can't approach him, but I really want to see him and his progress.


I just hope everything goes well for him. Oh and I also stopped my schooling to wait for him. I started a job at a fast food chain to earn me some cha-ching $. We live in a world where when you don't have these pieces of thin paper, you literally cannot survive.


I don't wanna be a burden to anyone. I simply wanna live my life free from guilt, judgement and excruciating sadness. Is it so wrong of me to want so?


I just wanna be with the person I fell in love with.


Heck, and there I said it. Uh-oh. Things might get pretty ugly from here.


But yeah, I can't. It's hard, but I have to be satisfied with looking at him from afar. When the right time comes, I will definitely approach him like a wild truck, and as a psychopath. 


Oh no, I can already tell what Jake's about to call me even when he doesn't know me. "Miss Psychopath". I can't help but laugh at the mere thought of being called that. 


I know this because Jake tends to name everyone he doesn't know as a "Miss" or "Sir" and then an adjective he can easily remember at the spur of the moment.


So I guess, I'll be Miss Psychopath, huh? Sounds fun. Alright, let's do this.


That Girl