I will..?

That night,it rained cats and dogs.It was raining outside with all the wild wind howling meanwhile inside even i had this storm raging on.

"Should i message her?"

i asked myself the question.Her name was flashing on my phone screen for half and hour now and as the clock was ticking,my urge to message her increased.

She was my ex girlfriend,the same girl i had done horrible things to.

I made her cry when she deserved all the love from the one guy she actually expected it from while the truth is that i am not that good with expectations.

I have ruined everyone's except mine and as expected i ruined her's too.

All she asked for a little time to spend with her,all she asked for a little more care than i used to do for my friends,All she asked for a little more attention being my girlfriend and i failed horribly in that.

Whenever she showered bucket of love on me,i couldn't even reciprocate it with a drop.That horrible I was.

Yes i was horrible but can you blame a guy who was sick of love and stupid stuffs like that?

Can you blame a guy who used to make girlfriends just in case he won't break their hearts and ended up doing the same?

Can you blame the guy who just wanted to make someone smile while having least of idea that someone else was falling for his own smile?

Can You?

Well,Yes you can.

You can blame him for showering the unnecessary and uncanny love on strangers.

You can blame him for making people laugh when he even didn't want to smile.

You can blame him for being the comforter all the times.

Yes you can blame him because i do blame him for this.

It was his mistake.

Ofcourse it was.

I mean how can you make strangers smile?

How can you expect people to even recognise your sadness behind that fake smile?

How can you expect people won't judge you by your nature?

They are no mind reader Right.

That guy is horribly wrong and will always be.

That guy deserves no friends,no one to comfort him.

What he actually deserves was lifelong hatred and ignorance.

I glanced at her name for another half hour and decided not to text her back to bring her back all the bad memories and even the good ones which have turned bad now.

"I guess somethings are better as it is now."

I said to myself and slept.

Next morning,

i woke up and saw

that the storm outside had stopped

and realised

that the storm within also went silent.

The one thought that kept on tingling my mind was

"Can You blame the guy?

Can you blame him?

Can I blame Me?"

The question yet again striked my mind as the morning sun came out.

"Mornings are beautiful.Isn't it?"

I asked myself in order to give that storm a complete rest but I knew that some day again

it will hit back

and harder than the previous time.

I will wait mate,

I will.?