something unordinary

nothing's happening. is it good,is it bad, maybe it's the most confusing thing I've ever had. whoever knew that this would be really ever difficult to think about. something happened, can I comprehend it. am I happy am I mad that it ended.

I'm pretty sure I'm just saying the same thing over and over again to better understand it, "whatever helps helps it's fine I'll get over it." is what I was thinking. but I'm rather young to grab glass and just start drinking, so I'll just sit on the chair I'll stand very still and continue on thinking.

see I did it again there I go again I'm saying stuff that just doesn't even make sense. but it's my words it's what I said so don't mention it. these are some words that I could have said to the less fortunate, but instead I'm still standing here thinking about what I said, sitting in the chair just thinking. without drinking