something bittersweet

this is the story of a thousand words that have never been said because I never had the guts to get up and talk to you.i only look at you from admiring everything about you. daydreaming of what life would be like to to hold you. talk to you. to cry with you. to love with you. in my mind we dance along the stars day by day never letting go for a second. you are mine and I am yours forever. but this is breaking point, we've been partners in the science lab. and I've tried to talk. starting a relationship takes 2 and you just never gave a fuck. so I'm taking my scissors and I'm cutting my leash, your holding the handle and still I don't speak. just let me be free, I know you don't want me. so don't try and stop me.

I lie in bed, half naked only in my underwear. with a blanket, small blanket draped on my body. hands resting at the top of my head. wondering how the fuck I got here. there's no clear answer, there's just a clear question. how, and a side note of why. followed by confusion, and the urging need to tell myself to shut the fuck up. a very lovely lady is dying right now go fuck your with such delight and only think of me ow.