running on emotion

all I feel is fear. empty, bottomless, uncomplete, no ones here. chained downed by society, abandoned by those who don't want me. maybe I can second guess and try and turn the light on. but just because I can see doesn't mean your really there. I consume to much, because unlike people food will never leave me. but something unaware to my eyes, my body starts grieving. fat, sloppy, sitting on the ground, I thought I was hole again. but a unhealthy relationship was is all I've found. and now I may just end up dead.

(created july 11, 2021)