it's just a feeling

my shoulder are weighting me down. I walk in circles it feels like forever, but I get dizzy for turning to fast. sand bags...it feels like sand bags are weighing down on my shoulders. he's coming. I don't know how. when I breathe there no air. there's so much sweat. I'm completely wet, yet it hasn't rained outside. I get light headed. my sight blurs on the occasion. I whisper he found me. how could he have found me. I fall to the floor in panic. I live alone...I walk alone...I sleep alone...I am alone. I feel weightless lying on the floor. a puddle is formed of tears and saliva. my breathe is so hot. I'm overheating...But I still deal cold as ice. I kept it simple. I was careful. but he always fucking haunt me. I can't escape. I just want to be free. I can't.be, Free.