Chapter 2

Mahiru's pov

"Hey Loser!"

Another one from my class called me again. I sigh and turn around to face him. I knew this is the other day like normal day.

"He-hey..." I reply sheepishly with my head is lowered.

"Hey losser, today we have an assignment. And we hope you can do them again."

The boy said more like a demand to be exact as he handed the assignment to me. I sigh and accept the assignment, I don't want to be hurt that badly again. Usually if I refuse them they would beat me out of the living hell within me. So I just accept it even it was hard.

Their homework wasn't that hard, but the amount of the homework they given me its too much, Plus I have my homework of my own so I bearly getting sleep. I sigh once again with this life I have.

"Good, now we needed that at 6:30 am in the morning since our class will start at 7, better be here a 6:30 or else..."

He said as a warning, then he kick my legs resulting me fell on My knees. I groan in pain for a little while.

"Lets go guys." He said and left with the others.

I sigh once more and atand up grabbing their homework and along with my books and walk away.

I usually walk home with my friends Koyuki, Ryusei, and Sakuya.

But those three seems to have extra classes and work today at school, and as for me I have to be none.

Those three doesn't know I'm the homework maker at school because I didn't tell them. One of my client did warn me that if I ever tell them I would be in a great danger, they can always beat the living hell out of me when I'm alone. And I'm always alone except Lunch and walking home.

Right now, I am alone. So they have a chance that they can beat the living hell out of me now. But since I didn't tell anyone and I accept their homeworks it means that I won't get beaten today. Lucky me I think.

As I walk and walk towards my home, The steps started to get heavier as it gets closer. My feet, my whole body became Stiff and heavy as I got closer to where I live, to where my home is.

Home. They say home is where a place you should be, a Home is a place where your heart belongs, Home is where you were loved. But.... I don't think my current home was any of those. Infact my homewas my living hell.

I felt so nervous and scared, fear was present on my whole body. I felt Scared to go home, to go to a place where my hell is waiting.

I shook my head and continue walking faster.

Once I reach my so called Home, I sigh and got nervous and scared. I don't like to go inside, its making me feel more sick and more.... wanted to die. End my life. I try it a couple of times but it seems God always had a way to stop me.

I try to cross the road with heavy rain, A truck was so close to end my life but surprisingly I survived in the hospital.

I try jumping off in the highest places, but someone is always there to catch me. Those other people who look at me with Pity.

I try to kill my self but I ended up hospitalized and after that survived my life. Its so annoying that I just let life and faith decided what shall my future will be.

I sigh and open the door towards the apartment and close them behind. I was about to say I'm home when a hard punch on my stomach was made. I groan in pain clunching my stomach and was already down.

"YOU DAMN USELESS CHILD!? WHY ARE SO DAMN USELESS!?"

A man shouted, I look up with my eyes full of fear and attempted to spoke.

"I'm sorry..." I said full with sadness and apologic Voice.

I got a kick in respond instead. I'm sure that I could not walk anytime soon with the pain soaring in my legs.

"YOUR DAMN SORRY WON'T DO ANYTHING!! YOUR THE REASON WHY YOUR MOTHER DIE! AND YOUR DAMN USELESS!!"

The man said,

He always said that to me, like every single day ofMy life. Make me remember the day my mother die, the day where my happiness was taken from me, the day where my smile, my last true smile was present in my pale face.

I didn't say anything, He walk out again probably tired of beating me. He always beat until I felt unconscious on the ground when he was here. I guest the session can start later.

Who is this Man you may Ask?

And Who am I?

Well, The name Is Mahiru Shirota. I live in a simple apartment with a simple life before. My mother's name is Maki Shirota and My father's name is Haru Shirota. Now it's obvious how Did I get my name right? Its suppose to be MakiHaru, but to put it simply and nice My mom make it as Mahiru.

I am 16 years old currently and my life was never been better.

Ever since My mom die In my 6th birthday My paradise was taken away, My smile and my happiness was replace by pain and all Pain.

My father, always blame me for the reason of my mother's death thats why he always beat the living hell out of me when he was here. His always in a business trip because ofhis work but sometimes he came home and bring some girls to fuck someone, or either be drunk and beat me up.

In school I'm known as useless since I can do anything right, well except for homework and written works that is. But other than that I'm basically useless. All I can do is work, the work I'm referring to is house chores. Thats the only work I can so right.

I have three friends but they are too blinded by my fake smile to know my suffering. To know my pain. I never tell them since it will cause them to Pity me, Or worst leave me. I don't need there Pity eventually, and I'm scared that they might leave me.

But...?

Why bother? If they want to leave me they can, since I'm so useless anyways. Too useless.

"YOU DAMN! USELESS MAKE ME DINNER NOW!"

My father shouted again. I slowly stand up and attempted to fall once but I force myself not to.

I then head to the kitchen and make some simple dinner. Well his the only one who would eat, I'm not feeling eating today despite him being here.

After making one, I left in the table and went to my room and started to take a bath. My body was full of scars, and some cuts that Was made by my father whipping me or I made them by myself cutting.

Did I told you that I try to kill myself? well it happens multiple times actually. Some of them start to heal and some will just gonna remain in that body.

As the cold water run towards my body, I can feel the loneliness. It slowly eating me and drowning me, I fell so alone and lonely. To eased the pain I sometimes cut myself. Because being alone and lonely makes my life just more pain.

After I take a bath, I went towards my bag grab the homework and start working.

As I start working on my and the others homework my Excuse of a Father called.

"YOU USELESS CHILD!"

I went to the living room immediately and look at him Grinning.

"I have a guest for tonight. Better stroll off somewhere. It will be just an Hour." He said with a smirk.

I think this one of those days that I would like the most. My father, when a Guest came or someone came he always shoo me away. Saying, That I am an ashame for his guest. So I just went to the park and radomly walk for an hour or in the mall just chilling.

Deciding I headed to the Mall, I quickly got my money and got dress and decided to just randomly walk in the mall since I have one hour to spear.

As I walk I realize how Lonely I was. How alone I was, because No one has ever been my side for so long and no one had ever care to be with me. I mean sure Koyuki, Ryusei and Sakuya is there but... I'm still feeling lonely. Feeling uncomplete. Its like something inside that burns me that was missing. Missing in my life.

I was lost in my thoughts until I bump into someone. I quickly bow and say sorry. As I look up, I saw a beautiful crimson red eyes staring shock at me.

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I was happy, I was really happy meeting a mysterious yet shy man Like Ash. He was handsome and a great person. I bet his girl friend is lucky with him around. His Jacket is cool too with Cat ears. All though that dark bugs under his eyes kinda bothering me but, hey he really looks cool.

Such an amazing person like him did exist.

I wonder, Its just a period of time. A small amount of time, Infact we just met and yet... I finally smile at him. I finally smile.

Whats with those crimson Eyes makes me fall?

What makes those Crimson eyes makes me felt Happy? makes me smile?

Come to think of it, since when did I smile like this? Since when did i literally smile even?

I frown, This is weird. Feeling such warm feeling, such relaxing, such calm and such great feeling I could not describe.

Why is it, that In such a small amout of time I smile with a stranger I barely Know.

I sigh and head to my home. I realize I've been out more than an hour. I was hoping to see Ash once more, I waa hoping to see him, to know about him, Its like I'm curious about him. Yet again I enjoy his presence just being near him. I wonder why?

I chuckle sadly. Because I remember How idiot I was for being an Idiot. Well, its just that i forgot to ask his number so someday we could possibly meet up once more. I sigh again, thinking negative again.

"Yeah, Why would someone as special as Ash wanted a losser like me? Pathetic." I said to myself as I softly chuckle.

I walk in in my home emotionless as I notice it was quiet. One thing for sure that my father is out again, meaning I'm completely alone again.

Its better to be this alone than him with me beating me never stops. But yet again, as I thought my Father was gone I was wrong.

When I came to my bed room, he was there sitting in my bed holding a whip smirking.

"I will be out for like 2-3 months from now on~ So~ I will miss My toy. Lets play~" he said looking at me with an evil smile.

My body tense, I shiver, my eyes filled with fear.

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I wake up late in the morning in the next day and notice that I was laying on the ground with my own blood. I sigh thinking its a mess again. But hey atleast I'll be alone again for atleast a 2-3 months. Thats ok.

I coughed some blood a little before I went to the bathroom and clean my self a little but not totally. Of course I'm having trouble standing, but I manage.

Well I clean my room first before taking a bath and skip breakfast. I'm so tired and felt unconscious yesterday that I forgot to do the homeworks of the others and I, so Instead I prepared myself for another bad beating that I will get....

How complecated my life is. Thinking simply, the simpliest thing to do is to endure the pain, soon I believe that this pain will go and one day will disappear as life goes by.

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