Did I suffer a tumor?

Ethan's POV

I can't believe she finally opened her eyes. Even though I'm trying to act calm, it's hard for me. 

Witnessing her go through all that, while I was just sitting down uselessly, make me feel like I don't deserve her. 

I've come up with a lot of pleading to make her realize how sorry I am for being useless, but still couldn't pick the right one that will make sense. 

I really fucked up. It doesn't matter if her work brings forth the situation. I called myself her man, and can only be manly inside the house, while I'm entirely useless outside. 

I should have protected her no matter what. You might be wondering why I'm blaming myself so much. 

It's because, even though we were captured, if I have taken over the control of the security after taking charge of the company like my parents wanted, I will be heavily protected and wouldn't be captured like a snail.