"I am afraid... What if...
He could not complete his sentence before he burst into a small sob looking dejected. Ji Yu stood beside Ken not knowing what to do.
"She's going to be alright," he said quietly. "We are going to get that bastard and we will make him pay, as long as there is no more stimulation on her brain, she'd be fine," said Ji Yu this time with more determination.
They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for (quote:Tom Bodett). Ji Yu felt it is necessary for Ken to have hope. The road that is built in hope is more pleasant to the traveler than the road built in despair, even though they both lead to the same destination. He understood that from young, he had lost hope to survive till he met Ru Ran, because of her he wanted to get better and because of it the sufferings he went through to get better was tolerable. Before Ru Ran, every single treatment was filled with pain and angst. In fact, his medical treatment was the same but the difference was he had something for him to look forward. It is true that only in the darkest night one can appreciate the beauty of the stars in the sky.
Every word that came out of Ji Yu tonight were engraved in Ken's heart. He shall not give up, for her he must work hard. If he fell into despair now what good would it do? He clenched his hands and vowed to make Ah Li pay. His life up to this very moment was meaningless, he always felt he had a goal which was to destroy Ji Yu but when he met Xin Xin and saw the bond she had with Ah Wah, he felt hollow.. Envious.. His heart started to crave something he never dared to dream about. Love. He had a good relationship with his foster father but it was never a deep one because he was afraid to love in fear of losing again. That is why he build a high wall around him. His foster father tried to break that wall but in the end he just stop trying and they had an amicable relationship. It all changed when she started to slowly fill his mind and soul. Her scent, her smile, her touch, they filled up his empty soul. He didn't know when did it started and how, but his soul is sucked into a vortex filled with her. The thoughts of losing her scared him to death, because he finally understood the meaning of love and happiness only to be taken away from him. How can he stay calm?
He had to stay calm, he reminded himself because she needs him to be calm. He stared at her appearing as if she is in a deep slumber. Ai Sha I now know this heart of mine belongs to you and that I have fallen deeply in love with you. You silly woman, how are you worthless? In my eyes, even all the money in this world would not be able to replace you. I rather be penniless with you than be the richest man without you. Without you this life has no meaning? How to go on living if you were to leave me behind?