I Don't Intend On Wasting It

"What's your dream, Little Ju?" Min Jun asked. His smiling eyes can make one fall in love in an instant.

"My dream? My dream was to put a smile on everyone's faces."

Suddenly, Min Jun hugged her laughing so hard. "Same. same. We really are twins."

Min Ju rose herself in the water catching her breathe. She looked around and find a man screaming to her as if trying to wake her senseless.

"Hey!"

Min Ju swam into the shore with ragged breath.

"Are you for real?! What are you doing out there?! I thought you die so I called for help!"

"I was trying to get a cold swim." Min Ju replied and walked towards the hotel.

What are you thinking, Min Ju. Are you trying to kill yourself?! What about your Grandfather?! The people who were waiting for you?!

Min Ju tried to fight her tears from her stupidity. If she dies, its not a smile that she will be putting in their faces but tears.

"Hello." Min Ju answered with a cheerful tone. However, the other line just remain silent.

"Qing Wu Yao...what do you want?"

"If you won't speak, I'm hunging up."

"Come back home...we're worried about you."

Min Ju didn't answer. She was going back to Beijing today after travelling to pacific ocean. Staying there would just suffocate her so it was a bad move that she came.

"I just needed some time." Her voice cracks. "Please, just let me go." she said.

"You need someone..." Qing Wu Yao's voice were a whisper. As much as he wants he wanted to be there for her.

"But I don't need someone! I don't need someone around me right now!" She yelled.

"I just wanted to be alone. I just wanted for the pain to stop. Min Jun is gone...he's gone. And I cannot do anything about it."

The people stops and stare at her. However, the tears and her pain, they don't know what cause this.

"Min Ju...I want to see you. I want to be there with you." Qing Wu Yao's voice turn soft.

"No! I don't want you to see me like this! I don't want you to see the broken me. I don't want you to pity me! I don't want you trying to help me back piece by piece. I don't want to hurt you. This is the real me, Qing Wu Yao. I can hurt people. I can go crazy. I can't take the pressure." Min Ju sobs louder, never caring about anyone that watches her.

"Nonsense. I don't care if I get hurt. It's my choice." Currently, Qing Wu Yao is driving his car right now. Trying to search the nook and crook of the town for her.

Min Ju arrived in Beijing an hour ago with a rented jet. She wanted to go back as soon as possible. But she never intended to go back home. She wanted to be alone for a while. She wanted to unwind. She wanted as much as alone time she can make.

Right now sitting on the railing of a bridge while talking to her phone.

"Qing Wu Yao...I just need the pain to be gone. I'll be back home, don't worry about me."

"How can I not worry about you when you're sitting in the railings as if any minute you're going to jump?"

Min Ju turn her head around to see Qing Wu Yao standing in the opposite side of the road bridge.

"How did you find me." Min Ju put down her phone.

"I know where to look, and I don't dare to stop looking for you." Qing Wu Yao approach her and he can clearly smell the a faint ocean smell from her.

"Where did you gone to? Did you go the Pacific?"

"I heard that there was a girl trying to drown herself." Qing Wu Yao hugged her from behind. He was scared that if she made a wrong turn she will fall.

"Don't try to do that again. I'm not going to lose you. We're not going to lose you."

Min Ju close her eyes listening to his voice. It was soothing and warmth that came from his body just made her feel sleepy.

"Life is a huge gift that God had given me. I don't intend on wasting it." Because if I do, Grandfather and the others would be sad. But then,bow about you Qing Wu Yao? If I'm gone, will you get sad too?

Her body goes limp. For a minute, Qing Wu Yao grew panic. Min Ju fall asleep in his arms.