Chapter 32: Resignation

After dinner, Su Yi Cheng drove Qian Luo home. He was still worried about her, but Qian Luo insisted that she was fine thus he had no way except going back home.

Qian Luo walked into her room and sat on her bed. She was tired of acting fine in order not to make Su Yi Cheng worried. Hence, she acted as usual and played happily in the theme park just now. Now, she was all alone. She knew best her condition and she wished to cry. Despite of the reasons, she just wanted to cry wholeheartedly.

As for Lu Jinnian, after he left Su Yi Cheng's villa, he went to his former house where he used to live with Qian Luo before. Although no one lived there since seven years ago, it was still as clean as original because he paid someone to clean it up every day. He sat behind the closed door as soon as he got into it. The room was only dimly litted by the sun rays through the window slit.

He grabbed his hair tightly as if he wanted to pluck it off from his head. His veins were visibly seen in his arms. He felt suffocated. He felt out-of-breath. He wished that he could die so he wouldn't feel the pain, the pain for knowing that she was hurt by him. The scenes from previous night replayed in his head.

'It's been seven years, but I still love him...very much.. even after what he has done.. I still love him.'

He remembered clearly how helpless hervoice was when she confessed.

'He said he felt disgusted when he looked at me.'

Her face was clearly shown that she was hurt deeply.

'He said that he might consider me as his bedwarmer if I am better at bed. So, do you want to help me?'

When he heard her saying those, he really had the impulse to hug her. He thought what he had done for her was to save her. However, it was not only hurting her, but forcing her to suffer depression. His Qian Qian suffered depression and he was the cause of it. How could he forgive himself ?

'She locked herself for days since the last day you guys met. There have been countless times of her trying to commit suicide. The recent was a month ago.'

"She even wished to die. How much have I hurt her that my strong and cheerful Qian Qian turn a hundred eighty degree ?"

'I would like to ask President Lu to never appear into her life ever.'

"Disappear from her life.", he muttered under his breath. His voice sounded so weak, but there was sense of determination.

He who was a cold and indifference businessman had never shed tears whatever matters that he faced. However, whenever it was about the woman he loved, he would shed tears unknowingly or even like what happened now, he cried as if he cried his harderst, it could bring them back to when he hadn't found her identity as Qian Ming's beloved daughter, the man who not only killed her parents but also raped his sister who was only fifteen before throwing her to his subordinates.

By the whole incident, Lu Jinnian stayed in the darkness for two days in a row without drinking and eating. He sat on the same place without moving an inch for the past two days. His phone was shut down so no one could reach him. Thankfully, he had a friend like Mo Yan who knew him better than himself.

Mo Yan who looked for Lu Jinnian because he would like to discuss some business was infromed that Lu Jinnian didn't show up in the company and couldn't be reached for these two days. He then quickly looked for information as for when the last he was seen. After knowing that Lu Jinnian went to a dinner party with Han Zhi Fan, he immediately called him to inquire some information.

"Lao er, what happened during the dinner party ?"

"There was actually nothing, but they met each other. No interaction.", Han Zhi Fan recalled what had happened.

" I got it, contact me if you have found him", Mo Yan hung up.

Han Zhi Fan had actually deployed some people to look for Lu Jinnian as soon as he got news from Mo Yan earlier. He shook his head helplessly looking at his friend's miserable love story. Clearly, both of them loved each other to the bones, but they couldn't be together because of identity.

Mo Yan had just hung up his phone when he suddenly thought of a place where Lu Jinnian might be. He quickly ran to his car and drove to the destination.

It was Lu Jinnian's appartment.

He pressed on the bell anxiously before the door opened. He sighed relief looking at his friend was still intact. It just his appeareance wasn't good.

"Lao San, I'm looking for you to talk about the Q Corporation.",Mo Yan smiled as he didn't want to expose his friend

"Come in.", Lu Jinnian walked away and sat on the sofa.

"That old bastard is trying to expand his business in mining.", Mo Yan said as he walked to a nearby couch as well.

"Lao Da" Lu Jinnian called Mo Yan softly. "I would like to go abroad."

"Good, go and relax yourself.", Mo Yan agreed because he knew that his friend needed refreshing than anyone else. Probably, after wandering around, he could get better.

"I wanted to resign and disappear from her world. That's the only thing that I can do for her.", he took out a bottle of medicine and put it on the table.

Mo Yan who read at the word on the bottle understood as for why his friend hid in the apartment for two days and decided to resign.