Chapter 5

One word rung in my head,shit. I felt nauseated, my head was spinning and my limbs felt week. Chris know Chris knows, that's all I could think of. "look I'll stop watching you and even thinking about, please just leave me in peace. I didn't mean to fall for you, a-and I know you not g-gay, so theirs no trouble with me so please just..." I couldn't keep it together, I bust into tears. "I'll change schools next semester if that would work better for you" I reach for the door handle to run inside the house, but it's locked. I try again still locked. With my back facing him, I Whisper could you please unlock the door.

No answer. "Chris" I ask again. He breaths an exhale, "put you seatbelt on" he commands and starts the car again. He's going to ruff me up a bit before he send me off, I think as he starts the car again. Tears still rolling down my face, he pulls up at a little park not far from our houses. He unlocks the doors and gets out, confused I stay seated. He waves his hand in a motion to follow.

I follow him to the playground. He sits in a swing, I sit in the swing next to his. "Couldn't send you home with tears in your eyes, your parents would kill me" he says with a slight laugh. I nod my head to his statement in agreement. "You know I didn't mean to scare you I was just curious" confused I finally look directly at him. "What do you mean?" I question. "I've never had a guy like me before and I'm just curious."

"Curious" I say softly

"Yeah" he replies. He starts to rock back in forth on the swing.

"I'm not mad or disgusted that you like me, I just don't know enough gay people to understand how it works"

"Works?" I say with a raised eyebrow.

"Like how do you fall in love with another dude or girl?"

"it's the same with a girl. You like their personality or their body or the way the carry themselves" I say with a blush, cause god knows I like his body.

"Really?"

"Really" I reply.

"Do you think I could fall in love, with a dude?"

"Maybe" I answer. "But you have a girlfriend right now so... " I trail off awkwardly.

"What" he laughs "me and Anna broke up months ago, but she still likes me"

I couldn't say anything to that. What would I say.

We spend another hour in the park. Just him asking questions and what he thought love was about. And me just correcting or agreeing with him. "you mean to tell me you can fall in love been in a relationship and never want to have sex" Chris asked. "Yesss" I answer for the billionth time. "Wow, I didn't think I could do that" he says with laugh. He turns to me. "Could you?"

"Could I what"

"not ever have sex"

My face is hotter than a scorching fire. "W-well, I mean I-I've n-never d-done s-se it! I've never done it!" oh my god I need to leave this earth.

"Oh" he says surprisingly. "Would you want to."

My heart stops completely. Is he offering? Or is he just curious again. I'm sweating my face is redder than a ripe tomato. Maybe I should confess again? Maybe he wants to date me? But would he only have sex with me out of curiosity? My thoughts are starting to get jumbled. I should ask if he's offering? Because that's the way he's making it sound! I tune to him, completely shaking. "A-are y-you-" I'm cut off by the sound of my ringtone going off. Digging my phone out of my backpack, I see its my moms number. I answer it, "hey mom, yeah I'm on the way home, yes mom I'm ok, the nurse was just overreacting, ok, bye" hanging up I turn to Chris. He smiles, and starts to walk back to the car.

Once again we are back in-front of my house. This time I'm not having a panic attack and crying. He unlocks the door. As I'm about to get out he catches my attention my tapping my shoulder. "Forgot to ask, what where you going to say before you mom called" he says with a smile and his adorable blue eyes. "Oh I uhh want to uhhh" I can't ask him now I think. "Your number" I quickly say. "I want your number just in case you still have questions and all that" I say a little flustered. "Oh yeah! Sure" he says. We trade phones to type in each other's contacts.

I practically run inside the house and lunge myself into my room. Looking at the contact name I smile I officially have Chris's number. Scrolling down contacts I press on Tori's.

"Tori! You'll never believed what just happened"